But all that she said only maddened the man’s harsh and pessimist nature the more.  The futility of her proposals, of her daring to think, after his fiat and the law’s had gone forth, that there was any way out of what she had done, for her or for him, drove him to frenzy.  And his wretched son was far away; so he must vent the frenzy on her.  The melancholia, which religion had more or less restrained and comforted during a troubled lifetime, became on this tragic night a wild-beast impulse that must have its prey.

He rose suddenly and came towards her, his eyes glaring, and a burst of invective on his white lips.  Then he made a rush for a heavy stick that leant against the wall.

She fled from him, reached her bedroom in safety, and bolted the door.  She heard him give a groan on the stairs, throw away the stick, and descend again.

Then for nearly two hours there was absolute stillness once more in this miserable house.  Bessie had sunk, half-fainting, on a chair by the bed, and lay there, her head lying against the pillow.

But in a very short time the blessed numbness was gone, and consciousness became once more a torture, the medium of terrors not to be borne.  Isaac hated her—­she would be taken from her children—­she felt Watson’s grip upon her arm—­she saw the jeering faces at the village doors.

At times a wave of sheer bewilderment swept across her.  How had it come about that she was sitting there like this?  Only two days before she had been everybody’s friend.  Life had been perpetually gay and exciting.  She had had qualms indeed, moments of a quick anguish, before the scene in the ‘Spotted Deer.’  But there had been always some thought to protect her from herself.  John was not coming back for a long, long time.  She would replace the money—­of course she would!  And she would not take any more—­or only a very little.  Meanwhile the hours floated by, dressed in a colour and variety they had never yet possessed for her—­charged with all the delights of wealth, as such a human being under such conditions is able to conceive them.

Her nature, indeed, had never gauged its own capacities for pleasure till within the last few months.  Excitement, amusement, society—­she had grown to them; they had evoked in her a richer and fuller life, expanded and quickened all the currents of her blood.  As she sat shivering in the darkness and solitude, she thought with a sick longing of the hours in the public-house—­the lights, the talk, the warmth within and without.  The drink-thirst was upon her at this moment.  It had driven her down to the village that afternoon at the moment of John’s arrival.  But she had no money.  She had not dared to unlock the cupboard again, and she could only wander up and down the bit of dark road beyond the ‘Spotted Deer,’ suffering and craving.

Well, it was all done—­all done!

She had come up without her candle, and the only light in the room was a cold glimmer from the snow outside.  But she must find a light, for she must write a letter.  By much groping she found some matches, and then lit one after another while she searched in her untidy drawers for an ink-bottle and a pen she knew must be there.