“I’m sorry, Ray,” she said finally.
“Sorry?”
“Sorry that I’m not the tender, trusting, maiden-creature who could fall trembling in your arms and love you forever, no matter what you did, and lie to you and for you the way good wives do. But I’m not—and, oh, I wish I were—or else—”
“Yes, Kate—what?”
“Or else that you were the kind of a man I need, the mate I’m looking for!”
“But, Kate, I protest that I am. I love you. Isn’t that enough? I’m not worthy of you, maybe. Yet if trying to earn you by being loyal makes me worthy, then I am. Don’t say no to me, Kate. It will shatter me—like an earthquake. And I believe you’ll regret it, too. We can make each other happy. I feel it! I’d stake my life on it. Wait—”
He arose and paced the floor back and forth.
“Do you remember the lines from Tennyson’s ‘Princess’ where the Prince pleads with Ida? I thought I could repeat them, but I’m afraid I’ll mar them. I don’t want to do that; they’re too applicable to my case.”
He knew where she kept her Tennyson, and he found the volume and the page, and when he had handed the book to her, he snatched his coat and hat.
“I’m coming for my answer a week from to-night,” he said. “For God’s sake, girl, don’t make a mistake. Life’s so short that it ought to be happy. At best I’ll only be able to live with you a few decades, and I’d like it to be centuries.”
He had not meant to do it, she could see, but suddenly he came to her, and leaning above her burned his kisses upon her eyes. Then he flung himself out of the room, and by the light of her guttering candles she read:—
“Come down, O
maid, from yonder mountain height.
What pleasure lives
in height (the shepherd sang).
In height and cold,
the splendor of the hills?
But cease to move so
near the Heavens, and cease
To glide a sunbeam by
the blasted pine,
To sit a star upon the
sparkling spire;
And come, for Love is
of the valley, come thou down
And find him; by the
happy threshold, he
Or hand in hand with
Plenty in the maize,
Or red with spirted
purple of the vats,
Or foxlike in the vine;
nor cares to walk
With Death and Morning
on the Silver Horns,
Nor wilt thou snare
him in the white ravine,
Nor find him dropped
upon the firths of ice,
That huddling slant
in furrow-cloven falls
To roll the torrent
out of dusky doors;
But follow; let the
torrent dance thee down
To find him in the valley;
let the wild
Lean-headed eagles yelp
alone, and leave
The monstrous ledges
there to slope, and spill
Their thousand wreaths
of dangling water-smoke,
That like a broken purpose
waste in air;
So waste not thou; but
come; for all the vales
Await thee; azure pillars
of the hearth