Ast. Who’s near there?—help the queen!
[The guards are coming.
Queen. Bid them away: ’Twas but a qualm, And ’tis already going.
Ast. Dear madam, what’s the matter?
You are of late so altered, I scarce know you.
You were gay humoured, and you now are pensive;
Once calm, and now unquiet:—
Pardon my boldness, that I press thus far
Into your secret thoughts: I have, at least,
A subject’s share in you.
Queen. Thou hast a greater. That of a friend:—But I am froward, say’st thou?
Ast. It ill becomes me, madam, to say that.
Queen. I know I am:—Pr’ythee,
forgive me for it,—
I cannot help it;—but thou hast
Not long to suffer it.
Ast. Alas!
Queen. I feel my strength each day and
hour consume,
Like lilies wasting in a lymbeck’s heat.
Yet a few days,
And thou shalt see me lie, all damp and cold,
Shrouded within some hollow vault, among
My silent ancestors.
Ast. O dearest madam! Speak not of death; or think not, if you die, That I will stay behind.
Queen. Thy love has moved me;—I,
for once, will have
The pleasure to be pitied. I’ll unfold
A thing so strange, so horrid of myself—
Ast. Bless me, sweet heaven!— So horrid, said you, madam?
Queen. That sun, who with one look surveys
the globe,
Sees not a wretch like me!—And could the
world
Take a right measure of my state within,
Mankind must either pity me, or scorn me.
Ast. Sure none could do the last.
Queen. Thou longest to know it,
And I to tell thee, but shame stops my mouth.
First, promise me thou wilt excuse my folly;
And, next, be secret.
Ast. Can you doubt it, madam?
Queen. Yet you might spare my labour:— Can you not guess?
Ast. Madam, please you, I’ll try.
Queen. Hold, Asteria!—
I would not have you guess; for should you find it,
I should imagine that some other might,
And then I were most wretched:—
Therefore, though you should know it, flatter me,
And say you could not guess it.
Ast. Madam, I need not flatter you, I cannot—and yet, Might not ambition trouble your repose?
Queen. My Sicily, I thank the Gods, contents
me.
But, since I must reveal it, know,—’tis
love:
I, who pretended so to glory, am
Become the slave of love.
Ast. I thought your majesty had framed
designs
To subvert all your laws; become a tyrant,
Or vex your neighbours, with injurious wars;
Is this all, madam?
Queen. Is not this enough?
Then, know, I love below myself; a subject;
Love one, who loves another, and who knows not
That I love him.