that has Sense and Justice in every thing else,
never reflects, that to come home only to sleep off
an Intemperance, and spend all the Time he is there
as if it were a Punishment, cannot but give the
Anguish of a jealous Mind. He always leaves
his Home as if he were going to Court, and returns
as if he were entring a Gaol. I could add to
this, that from his Company and his usual Discourse,
he does not scruple being thought an abandoned Man,
as to his Morals. Your own Imagination will say
enough to you concerning the Condition of me his
Wife; and I wish you would be so good as to represent
to him, for he is not ill-natured, and reads you much,
that the Moment I hear the Door shut after him, I throw
myself upon my Bed, and drown the Child he is so
fond of with my Tears, and often frighten it with
my Cries; that I curse my Being; that I run to my
Glass all over bathed in Sorrows, and help the Utterance
of my inward Anguish by beholding the Gush of my
own Calamities as my Tears fall from my Eyes.
This looks like an imagined Picture to tell you, but
indeed this is one of my Pastimes. Hitherto I
have only told you the general Temper of my Mind,
but how shall I give you an Account of the Distraction
of it? Could you but conceive how cruel I am one
Moment in my Resentment, and at the ensuing Minute,
when I place him in the Condition my Anger would
bring him to, how compassionate; it would give you
some Notion how miserable I am, and how little I deserve
it. When I remonstrate with the greatest Gentleness
that is possible against unhandsome Appearances,
and that married Persons are under particular Rules;
when he is in the best Humour to receive this, I
am answered only, That I expose my own Reputation and
Sense if I appear jealous. I wish, good Sir,
you would take this into serious Consideration,
and admonish Husbands and Wives what Terms they ought
to keep towards each other. Your Thoughts on
this important Subject will have the greatest Reward,
that which descends on such as feel the Sorrows
of the Afflicted. Give me leave to subscribe my
self, Your unfortunate humble Servant, CELINDA.
I had it in my Thoughts, before I received the Letter
of this Lady, to consider this dreadful Passion in
the Mind of a Woman; and the Smart she seems to feel
does not abate the Inclination I had to recommend to
Husbands a more regular Behaviour, than to give the
most exquisite of Torments to those who love them,
nay whose Torment would be abated if they did not
love them.
It is wonderful to observe how little is made of this
inexpressible Injury, and how easily Men get into
a Habit of being least agreeable where they are most
obliged to be so. But this Subject deserves a
distinct Speculation, and I shall observe for a Day
or two the Behaviour of two or three happy Pair I
am acquainted with, before I pretend to make a System
of Conjugal Morality. I design in the first Place
to go a few Miles out of Town, and there I know where
to meet one who practises all the Parts of a fine