Tales of Unrest eBook

Joseph M. Carey
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 233 pages of information about Tales of Unrest.

Tales of Unrest eBook

Joseph M. Carey
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 233 pages of information about Tales of Unrest.

He walked from one end of the room to the other without a pause, like a traveller who, at night, hastens doggedly upon an interminable journey.  Now and then he glanced at her.  Impossible to know.  The gross precision of that thought expressed to his practical mind something illimitable and infinitely profound, the all-embracing subtlety of a feeling, the eternal origin of his pain.  This woman had accepted him, had abandoned him—­had returned to him.  And of all this he would never know the truth.  Never.  Not till death—­not after—­not on judgment day when all shall be disclosed, thoughts and deeds, rewards and punishments, but the secret of hearts alone shall return, forever unknown, to the Inscrutable Creator of good and evil, to the Master of doubts and impulses.

He stood still to look at her.  Thrown back and with her face turned away from him, she did not stir—­as if asleep.  What did she think?  What did she feel?  And in the presence of her perfect stillness, in the breathless silence, he felt himself insignificant and powerless before her, like a prisoner in chains.  The fury of his impotence called out sinister images, that faculty of tormenting vision, which in a moment of anguishing sense of wrong induces a man to mutter threats or make a menacing gesture in the solitude of an empty room.  But the gust of passion passed at once, left him trembling a little, with the wondering, reflective fear of a man who has paused on the very verge of suicide.  The serenity of truth and the peace of death can be only secured through a largeness of contempt embracing all the profitable servitudes of life.  He found he did not want to know.  Better not.  It was all over.  It was as if it hadn’t been.  And it was very necessary for both of them, it was morally right, that nobody should know.

He spoke suddenly, as if concluding a discussion.

“The best thing for us is to forget all this.”

She started a little and shut the fan with a click.

“Yes, forgive—­and forget,” he repeated, as if to himself.

“I’ll never forget,” she said in a vibrating voice.  “And I’ll never forgive myself. . . .”

“But I, who have nothing to reproach myself . . .”  He began, making a step towards her.  She jumped up.

“I did not come back for your forgiveness,” she exclaimed, passionately, as if clamouring against an unjust aspersion.

He only said “oh!” and became silent.  He could not understand this unprovoked aggressiveness of her attitude, and certainly was very far from thinking that an unpremeditated hint of something resembling emotion in the tone of his last words had caused that uncontrollable burst of sincerity.  It completed his bewilderment, but he was not at all angry now.  He was as if benumbed by the fascination of the incomprehensible.  She stood before him, tall and indistinct, like a black phantom in the red twilight.  At last poignantly uncertain as to what would happen if he opened his lips, he muttered: 

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