“But—father,” her voice trembling, “I—I am not so sure that I wish to marry Captain Le Gaire at—at all.”
“Not marry him! Why, I supposed that was settled—you seemed very happy—”
“Yes, once,” she broke in. “I thought I loved him—perhaps I did—but he has not appeared the same man to me of late. I cannot explain; I cannot even tell what it is I mean, but I am afraid to go on. I want more time to decide, to learn my own heart.”
“You poor little girl, you are nervous, excited.”
“No, it is not that, papa. I simply doubt myself, my future happiness with this man. Surely you will not urge me to marry one I do not love?”
“No, girlie; but this decision comes so suddenly. I had believed you very happy together, and even to-night, when this plan was first broached, there was no word of protest uttered. I thought you were glad.”
“Not glad! I was stunned, too completely surprised to object. You all took my willingness so for granted that I could find no words to express my real feelings. Indeed I do not believe I knew what they were—not until I sat here alone thinking, and then there came to me a perfect horror of it all. I tried to fight my doubts, tried to convince myself that it was right to proceed, but only to find it impossible. I loathe the very thought; if I consent I know I shall regret the act as long as I live.” “But, Billie,” he urged earnestly, “what can have occurred to make this sudden change in you? Captain Le Gaire belongs to one of the most distinguished families of the South; is wealthy, educated, a polished gentleman. He will give you everything to make life attractive. Surely this is but a mere whim!”
“Have you found me to be a nervous girl, full of whims?”
“No, certainly not, but—”
“And this is no whim, no mood. I cannot tell, cannot explain all that has of late caused me to distrust Captain Le Gaire, only I do not feel toward him as I once did. I never can again, and if you insist on this marriage, it will mean to me unhappiness—I am, sure of that.”
“But what can we do at this late hour! Everything is prepared, arranged for; even the minister has arrived, and is waiting.”
She stood before him, her hands clasped, trembling from head to foot, yet with eyes determined.
“Will you delay action a few moments, and send Captain Le Gaire to me? I—I must see him alone.”
He hesitated, avoiding her eyes and permitting his glance to wander about the room.
“Please do this for me.”
“But in your present mood—”
“I am perfectly sane,” and she stood straight before him, insistent, resolute. “Indeed I think I know myself better than for months past. I shall say nothing wrong to Captain Le Gaire, and if he is a gentleman he will honor me more for my frankness. Either you will send him here to me, or else I shall go to him.”