hurling us back, stumbling, fighting, cursing, until
they also gained foothold with us on the bloody floor.
The memory of it is but hellish delirium, a recollection
of fiends battling in a strange glare, amid stifling
smoke, their faces distorted with passion, their muscles
strained to the uttermost, their only desire to kill.
Uniform, organization, were alike blotted out; we
scarcely recognized friend or foe; shoulder to shoulder,
back to back we fought with whatever weapon came to
hand. I heard the crack of rifles; saw the leaping
flames of discharge, the dazzle of plunging steel,
the downward sweep of musket stocks. There were
crash of blows, the thud of falling bodies, cries
of agony, and yells of exultation. I was hurled
back across the table by the rush, yet fell upon my
feet. The room seemed filled with dead men; I
stepped upon them as I struggled for the door.
There were others with me—who, or how many,
I knew not. They were but grim, battling demons,
striking, gouging, firing. I saw the gleam of
knives, the gripping of fingers, the mad outshooting
of fists. I was a part of it, and yet hardly realized
what I was doing. I had lost all consciousness
save the desire to strike. I know I shouted orders
into the din, driving my carbine at every face fronting
me; I know others came through the smoke cloud, and
we hurled them back, fairly cleaving a lane through
them to the hall door. I recall stumbling over
dead bodies, of having a wounded man clutch at my
legs, of facing that mob with whirling gun stock until
the last fugitive was safely behind me, and then being
hurled back against the wall by sudden rush.
How I got there I cannot tell, but I was in the hall,
my clothing a mass of rags, my body aching from head
to foot, and still struggling. About me were
men, my own men—pressed together back to
back, meeting as best they could the tide pouring
against them from two sides. Remorselessly they
hurled us back, those behind pushing the front ranks
into us. We fought with fingers, fists, clubbed
revolvers, paving the floor with bodies, yet inch
by inch were compelled to give way, our little circle
narrowing, and wedged tighter against the wall.
Mahoney had made the stairs, and fought there like
a demon until some one shot him down. I saw three
men lift the great log which had barricaded the door,
and hurl it crashing against the gray mass. But
nothing could stop them. I felt within me the
strength of ten men; the carbine stock shattered, I
swung the iron barrel, striking until it bent in my
hands. I was dazed by a blow in the face, blood
trickled into my eyes where a bullet had grazed my
forehead, one shoulder smarted as though burned by
fire, yet it never occurred to me to cease fighting.
Again and again the men rallied to my call, devils
incarnate now, only to have their formation shattered
by numbers. We went back, back, inch by inch,
slipping in blood, falling over our own dead, until
we were pinned against the wall. How many were