ordered to wear. But when the deuce is she alone?
It’s herself of course that she has swindled
worst: she has put herself off, so insanely that
even her conceit but half accounts for it, with little
inadequate concessions, little false measures and
preposterous evasions and childish hopes. Her
great terror is now that Iffield, who already has suspicions,
who has found out her pince-nez but whom she has beguiled
with some unblushing hocus-pocus, may discover the
dreadful facts; and the essence of what she wanted
this morning was in that interest to square me, to
get me to deny indignantly and authoritatively (for
isn’t she my ‘favourite sitter?’)
that she has anything in life the matter with any part
of her. She sobbed, she ‘went on,’
she entreated; after we got talking her extraordinary
nerve left her and she showed me what she has been
through—showed me also all her terror of
the harm I could do her. ’Wait till I’m
married! wait till I’m married!’ She took
hold of me, she almost sank on her knees. It
seems to me highly immoral, one’s participation
in her fraud; but there’s no doubt that she must
be married: I don’t know what I don’t
see behind it! Therefore,” I wound up,
“Dawling must keep his hands off.”
Mrs. Meldrum had held her breath; she gave out a long
moan. “Well, that’s exactly what
I came here to tell him.”
“Then here he is.” Our host, all
unprepared, his latchkey still in his hand, had just
pushed open the door and, startled at finding us, turned
a frightened look from one to the other, wondering
what disaster we were there to announce or avert.
Mrs. Meldrum was on the spot all gaiety. “I’ve
come to return your sweet visit. Ah,”
she laughed, “I mean to keep up the acquaintance!”
“Do—do,” he murmured mechanically
and absently, continuing to look at us. Then
he broke out: “He’s going to marry
her.”
I was surprised. “You already know?”
He produced an evening paper, which he tossed down
on the table. “It’s in that.”
“Published—already?” I was
still more surprised.
“Oh Flora can’t keep a secret!”—Mrs.
Meldrum made it light. She went up to poor Dawling
and laid a motherly hand upon him.
“It’s all right—it’s
just as it ought to be: don’t think about
her ever any more.” Then as he met this
adjuration with a stare from which thought, and of
the most defiant and dismal, fairly protruded, the
excellent woman put up her funny face and tenderly
kissed him on the cheek.
CHAPTER X