SYMPTOMS OF FEMININE LOVE
This portrayal of the girl as the chief lover is quite the custom in Hindoo literature, and doubtless mirrors life as it was and is. Like a dog that fawns on an indifferent or cruel master, these women of India were sometimes attached to their selfish lovers and husbands. They had been trained from their childhood to be sympathetic, altruistic, devoted, self-sacrificing, and were thus much better prepared than the men for the germs of amorous sentiment, which can grow only in such a soil of self-denial. Hence it is that Hindoo love-poems are usually of the feminine gender. This is notably the case with the Saptacatakam of Hala, an anthology of seven hundred Prakrit verses made from a countless number of love-poems that are intended to be sung—“songs,” says Albrecht Weber, “such as the girls of India, especially perhaps the bayaderes or temple girls may have been in the habit of singing."[274] Some of these indicate a strong individual preference and monopoly of attachment:
No. 40: “Her
heart is dear to her as being your abode,
her eyes because she
saw you with them, her body
because it has become
thin owing to your absence.”
No. 43: “The burning (grief) of separation is (said to be) made more endurable by hope. But, mother, if my beloved is away from me even in the same village, it is worse than death to me.”
No. 57: “Heedless of the other youths, she roams about, transgressing the rules of propriety, casting her glances in (all) directions of the world for your sake, O child.”
No. 92: “That
momentary glimpse of him whom, oh, my
aunt, I constantly long
to see, has (touched) quenched
my thirst (as little)
as a drink taken in a dream.”
No. 185: “She
has not sent me. You have no relations
with her. What
concern of ours is it therefore? Well,
she dies in her separation
from you.”
No. 202: “No matter how often I repeat to my mistress the message you confided to me, she replies ’I did not hear’ (what you said), and thus makes me repeat it a hundred times.”
No. 203: “As
she looked at you, filled with the might
of her self-betraying
love, so she then, in order to
conceal it, looked also
at the other persons.”