away my shield; but the Lord has stood by me, and
I believe I shall come off more than conqueror.’—About
two o’clock we thought she was dying; she stretched
out her hand to each of us, and drew us near, to kiss
her; then shouted as loud as she could, ’Glory
be to God! I am going to glory; glory be to God!’
About five she revived again. One said, ’Jesus
is near,’ she responded, ’Glory, He is,
He is’—I was with her from two in
the morning; she was restless, and in much pain, until
about nine o’clock; when she changed for death.
Conscious that she was dying, she desired to be placed
in a chair, and shouted with all the strength she
had, indeed louder than we could have supposed her
capable of, ’Glory be to God!’ ‘Glory
be to God!’ many times, until her strength was
exhausted. She breathed till eleven, and then,
without moving hand or foot; without a sigh or a groan;
her happy spirit took its flight to the paradise of
God. Thus died Elizabeth Stables, in the thirty-fifth
year of her age. It had been for some time my
prayer, that the Lord, if it pleased Him, would grant
her an easy passage, and permit her to depart in the
day-time. In this He has mercifully heard me.
Before the crisis arrived, I felt a degree of timidity;
and therefore, when I rose from my bed, I bowed myself
before the Lord, before entering the room. He
graciously dispersed my fears, and filled my heart
with peace. To me the scene of dissolution was
exceedingly solemn. May my last end be like hers!—I
followed the remains of dear Elizabeth to the grave,
to which we consigned them ’in sure and certain
hope of a joyful resurrection.’ Surely
this hope has preserved me from yielding to useless
tears, as on former occasions;—for I loved
her. Henceforth may it be my constant study to
be found ready, that, like her, I may triumph in the
prospect of dissolution.—Visited two or
three afflicted persons in the village, perhaps for
the last time: may I find them all again in the
day of eternity. Took tea with Mrs. B. and her
daughter, whom I would gladly have persuaded to accept
the offers of mercy; but the grace of God alone can
affect the heart.—After an absence of six
weeks I returned home: the day was fine.
Truly mercy follows me. Through courtesy to a
friend, I wounded my own soul by yielding to converse
on subjects, which no way tended to promote fervency
of spirit. I felt humbled in consequence, and
as if I could not lift my heart to God; but before
the close of the service, which I afterwards attended,
the Lord graciously softened my hardness down—melting
me into tears.—I close the year fully bent
upon giving myself to God. While I write, I enjoy
peace. O Thou that seest me, Thyself unseen,
direct my pen, and guide me to Thyself. Here on
my knees I surrender myself to Thee; if Thou discoverest
any guile in me, reveal it to me, and make me wholly
thine. Surrounded with Thy presence, O fill me
with Thy love! From henceforth, may I dwell in
the secret place of the most High, and abide under
the shadow of the Almighty.