to Thy will; and as, by this bereavement, I shall,
if restored to health, have more leisure, may I dedicate
it to Thee.—While Miss O. was praying with
me, I had such a blessed view of the inhabitants of
the world above, that for a moment I seemed to be
there. At the Class I was led to see the privilege
of living by faith every moment. Since then,
I have been able to realize
present blessings.
The perusal of one of Mr. Fletcher’s letters
has been of service to me; also the recollection of
what my father used to say; ’I ask in faith,
and bring the blessing away with me.’ Surely
this is our Christian birthright. Faith honours
God, and ’without faith it is impossible to please
God.’ Thanks be unto Thee, I can now live
by faith; but I want to lose myself in Thee, Thou
vast unfathomable sea of love! Covered with imperfections,
I want to be plunged in the precious blood of Jesus.
Precious Name! Precious blood! the sweetest cordial
of the soul. I have had such a view of the way
of faith as I cannot express; so simple, yet so divine!
Such a sweet deliverance from doubt! While I
feel myself nothing, I have power to apprehend God
as my sanctifying Saviour. What has the world
to compare with this?—I rose before six
to hold communion with my God. Art Thou
my
God? Yes; by that exalted name, I feel Thou art
mine. My soul longs for Thee. When shall
I wake up after Thy likeness? I have this evening
met the precious charge committed to my care.
The responsibility seems greater than ever. O
may I watch as one having to give account.
“Sinnington. Nature now resumes its beauty,
but the removal of my beloved Ann, and the absence
of my dear Elizabeth, make a mighty chasm. Well;
soon these separations will cease, and my freed spirit
soar to mansions of unclouded bliss. I have been
tempted by the enemy; but hold fast my confidence:
may the faith, which purifies the heart, sanctify
my lips, that I may tell of all Thy wondrous love.—I
visited Mrs. B. a second time; she is encouraged to
believe the Lord will save her, for Christ’s
sake-without any merit of her own. Her husband
was more cordial than I expected from the account
I had heard of him; the tears started in his eyes
while I conversed with him. I feel I am employed
as I ought to be, when in this way I render the least
service to a fellow-creature; but O how poor and feeble
are my efforts! Since I came here my mind has
been variously affected; sometimes clear, sometimes
clouded; sometimes in prayer I have experienced unusual
liberty, and again a degree of coldness; but always
a sense of the approbation of God, with a desire to
be entirely conformed to His will.—Part
of the day was spent in bidding the friends farewell,
and in visiting some of the poor; and now I have finished
my visit to this place, I can say, I have been endeavouring
to please God, and in some measure, benefit my fellow
creatures; but my performances have been so mixed,
that I am ashamed before the Lord. Nothing but