“Father met our class; when he spoke to me I could not forbear weeping.  O that I could weep my sins away.  J.T. and B.M. prayed and mentioned me by name.  This touched my pride.  Oh! for simplicity!—­In the forenoon I went to Pavement church to hear dear Mr. Emmington.  His text was, ’Sirs, what must I do to be saved?’—­A searching discourse.  O Lord, revive Thy work in my soul; probe me to the bottom.—­I feel a very hard heart; but, Lord, a touch, a look from Thee, can break my heart of stone.  O melt me into love.—­Alas for me!  I seem quite barren, but is there not a cause?  Yes.  Lightness of spirit, love of the creature, pride, and dislike, are sins that so easily beset me.  I am overcome by them.  But, O God, Thou hast all power, now resume Thy right.  Let the powers of hell no more prevail.—­In the class father asked me, if I ever went to pray; I answered in the affirmative; but, Lord, Thou knowest I am not so much in earnest as I was some weeks ago.—­Father called upon me to pray; I did not refuse, but have since been tempted to believe I should be a greater hypocrite.  Lord, make me a Christian indeed in whom there is no guile.—­Lord give me to enjoy the reality of Christianity, I want to be thine.  God help me to give up my own will.  Bless him whom I have given up with a very great growth in grace.”

[This entry refers to an attachment which met with the disapproval of her parents and was relinquished in the spirit of filial obedience.]

“Just before tea, Mr. Spence asked me if my heart was right; I could not forbear weeping.  ‘God be merciful to me a sinner.’  What an enemy is a light and trifling spirit!—­I was grieved because I had disobliged my mother.  O for a meek and quiet spirit.”

The particulars of the next two or three years are only to be gathered from a few scanty notes attached to a small pocket Bible, in which she had carefully noted the sermons she heard with the impressions made on her own mind.  The greater part of these are written in short-hand, and consequently useless.  But such as are intelligible prove that she was in the habit of weighing the words of the preacher and applying them to her own heart.  Some expressions seem to indicate that the clouds which had so long overshadowed her spirit were beginning to disperse and give place to a serene and sunny sky.  We quote a few examples.

“Oh! how happy was I!—­I did not hear to profit, I was troubled in mind.  I felt it.—­I long to find my all in God.—­I felt the love of Jesus precious.—­I am answered.—­Blessed, heart searching doctrine!—­A telling sermon but I was unmoved; how hard am I.—­He like some of his brethren harps at the gown and cassock.—­I felt much softened.—­Memorable!—­Alas!  I profit little by all I hear; surely it is because my faith is small.  Ah. me! how long? how long?—­A precious discourse to me.  He preached my experience.—­The solution of the text was a gratification, while I heard profitably.  He made a very droll remark