with the word of God, and the holy unction with which
she spoke, caused those present to say, ’This
is none other but the house of God, and this is the
gate of heaven.’ Love to God and the souls
of men burned brightly on the altar of her heart.
This was seen in the deep interest she took in each
member of the class, and in her prayerful concern for
the members of her own family. ’God is giving
me answers to my prayers both on behalf of my children
and grandchildren,’ she would say. But
there were aspirations of soul after higher forms of
spiritual life, which could only be realized in the
fruition of the divine presence. For increase
of years she made but little allowance, so that, whilst
her love to God and heavenly meekness became increasingly
apparent to others, her diminished energy was sometimes
to herself the occasion of painful conflict and introspection.”]
Before I awoke I thought a letter was put into my
hands, the contents of which were ’Through much
tribulation ye shall enter the kingdom.”
The Lord giving me power, I will fight my passage
through.—Through the intensity of the weather,
and my own increasing indisposition, I have been compelled
to keep my bed; but prayer has been the life of my
soul;—the only sure refuge in trouble.
Much drawn out for my dear John, who, we expect, is
this day holding an important meeting.—The
year is quickly passing into eternity. It tarries
not, nor waiteth the hurried one to free. Defer
not, for the moment will soon pass away. Now touch
the golden sceptre while it is called to-day.
Believe, believe in Jesus, who gave His life for
you.
Accept the rich gratuity, for He hath purchased you.”
“1860.—Although not able to sit up
to welcome the new year, it broke upon me with these
words—
Jesus shall all my powers possess,
My hopes, my fears, my joys:
and thus my heart resolves. Yes, Lord, the dying
embers of my life are Thine. I thank Thee, Thou
dost not cast me off in my old age. ’My
soul shall magnify the Lord, and my spirit rejoice
in God my Saviour.’—A few days ago,
my mind was filled with uncertainty respecting two
members of my family; however, I laid the case before
the Lord, and, to my surprise and grateful acknowledgment,
in a day or two there was an opening in each case.
Reader or writer, think not highly of thyself, others
were praying as well as thee.—My first thought
this morning, ’I have loved thee with an everlasting
love, therefore with “loving kindness have I
drawn thee.’ A very cheering letter from
my son Richard. Praise the Lord for such information,
both from heaven and earth.—A beautiful
sunny morning. Grant that the Sun of righteousness
may rise upon me with healing in His wings. Let
Him heal, and form my soul anew. This is my chief
desire. I do thank Thee for peace, but O enlarge
my heart, and fully fit me to behold Thy glory!—A
quiet Sabbath morning. I am sitting alone.
The sun shines brightly upon me, and all nature seems
to join in hallowed harmony. May my soul, capable
of far greater powers, be expanded to receive far
richer influences from the great source of my being—the
inexhaustible fountain of all blessedness. My
soul drinks of the living stream. Praise God
for these small draughts. Enlarge and fill, and
enlarge for ever!”