a praying spirit; and I trust He will answer His own.
Spirit’s prayer. Lord, speak the answer
to my heart now.—Went with Miss
Barrett to the Poor-house. She exhorted from,
’I believe in the communion of saints, and in
the forgiveness of sins.’ After that I
went with her to the select band; she then came home,
and slept with me. The Lord blessed my soul in
her company.—My mind is troubled; but do
Thou, who in every temptation makest a way for Thy
people to escape, deliver my soul out of prison, that
I may praise Thee.—I went with Miss B.
to see some sick people. One man was mourning
for redemption in the blood of the Lamb; but, before
we came away, he rejoiced in the God of his salvation.—Lord,
keep me from the vanity of this alluring world.
May I love Thee supremely. The Lord blesses my
soul greatly. Blessed be His name, He reproves
me; may I take the reproof.—A gleam of
love was let into my soul at the meeting; but after,
I felt very dull and stupid.—I think I am
willing to be any thing, or nothing, only give me
to feel Thy love in my heart. Do, Jesus, increase
my faith, but let it be now. Help me, I pray Thee,
to live as in Thy sight all the day long.—Called
to see Ann F. We went up-stairs and prayed together.—I
have had more of the presence of God the last few
days. The Lord be praised. I want to have
my evidence made very clear. O shine on my soul,
and make the darkness light before me; that I may
greatly triumph in the God of my salvation.—I
heard Mr. Simeon at Belfrey Church; it was a gracious
time of refreshing from the presence of the Lord.—Miss
Barrett spoke at Clifton. The power of the Lord
was evidently felt. As it was a very wet night
we went into a barn, but it filled so fast, we returned
into the open air. Miss B. prayed that God would
stop the bottles of heaven for a few minutes; and,
glory be to His name, He answered her request.
The Prayer-meeting continued some time, and several
souls were brought into liberty.—I gave
way to a light spirit, which has done me much hurt.—Lord,
pardon me for giving way to lightness of spirit; help
me in future to redeem the time, and to take due care
to prepare myself for the great day.—O,
Jesus, rouse me from my sins, and give me to wake
up after Thy likeness. Do fill me with Thy love.
Let it flow into my poor disconsolate soul, that I
may serve Thee with all my ransomed powers.—O
let not my heart be set on the creature more than Thee;
but let me give myself to Thee without reserve.
I go to school; Lord, help me to learn the lessons
of Thy grace as well as arithmetic. Drive this
dulness, both of body and soul away; that I may learn
with speed and delight.—Thou knowest, Lord,
that I have not lived adorning my profession; let
the time past suffice, and let me begin to glorify
Thy name. Lord, save me from flattery, for Christ’s
sake. Amen.—January, 1799. Began
to meet in band with Sarah B. O Lord, give us one spirit
with Thyself. I want, O Lord, to love Thee supremely
above all beside; give me, I pray Thee, the victory
over myself.”