the following morning, and went to see her mother
again. She found that she had been in such distress
of mind, that at midnight she had aroused a neighbour
to pray with her, and not in vain; for the Lord graciously
sent ’deliverance out of Zion,’ and spoke
peace to her troubled spirit. She lived about
three weeks after my last visit, and died rejoicing
in the Lord. These circumstances have so deeply
affected Mrs. K. as to lead her to seek the Lord,
and she is now pursuing her way to heaven. Glory
be to God on high!—In consequence of my
uncle’s declining health, I returned again to
Sinnington; and am now sat by his side. He is
restless, but says nothing. It is the midnight
hour; yet ’He that keepeth Israel neither slumbers
nor sleeps.’ No sound salutes my ear but
the pendulum of the clock, which, with every stroke,
admonishes me that time flies.—Alone with
uncle. He sleeps. All is tranquillity and
peace; my soul is fixed on Christ, and enjoys undisturbed
repose. Surrounded by Him, in whom I live, move,
and have my being, all nature,—the balmy
air,—the rich verdure,—the growing
beauties of spring enlivened by the great luminary
of heaven, conspires to raise this often wandering
heart to Him, whom I desire above all things to love
and obey.—I asked uncle if his prospect
was bright; he replied, ’Aye, I’ve no
doubt.’—I wonder at myself I make
so little progress in knowledge, or increase in holiness.
I purpose, aim, attempt, yet daily have cause to mourn
my unprofitableness; but with one whose memoir I have
lately looked into, ’I must come the short way
to God, through the atoning blood of Jesus.’
His name is precious now. I feel its balmy power.
O for ability to praise Him in language adequate to
the glorious task! God is love. Creation
with its thousand tongues proclaims Him ‘Wonderful,
Counsellor, the Mighty God;’ and millions of
intelligent creatures extol Him, ‘the Everlasting
Father, and Prince of Peace’ I have written
a letter to be read in the Tuesday class. Visited
Mr. M.—My soul goes out after God, and
my faith claims Him mine. O what an exalting,
and yet humbling thought! Faith unites but love
adores.—How quickly time wastes away!
I have been here a month to-day; not supposing uncle
could live many days. Nothing solid has passed
his lips for more than that period; and yet, though
certainly weaker, his strength is wonderful.
I begin to feel anxious about home, and the dear folks
among whom I meet. May the Lord bless them.—My
uncle evidently changed for the worse, and so continued
for two days, until—on the 21st of June,
about five minutes past five, he expired. It
is a week to-day since he spoke, and six since he took
his bed. I have often been sweetly drawn out
in prayer by his bedside, and enjoyed peculiar liberty
the day he died. I went again to see Mrs. M.,
who is also dying, her friends weeping around her.—Returned
to York. The sewing meeting was but thinly attended;—chiefly
young persons, to whom I felt prompted to speak on
their souls’ welfare. The result I leave.”