wish even to hear me express it. He listened very
courteously to my criticisms, as a man might listen
to the talk of a child. However, when I had once
got hold of the clue, I abandoned myself joyfully
to what appeared to me to be the humour of the situation.
I thought to myself that here was an opportunity of
turning inside out the mind of a very young and intelligent
man. I might learn, I thought, what the new ideas
were, the direction in which the younger generation
were tending. Now, it would be invidious to mention
the names of the books that we discussed. Many
of the volumes that he ranked very high, I had not
even read; and he was equally at sea in the old books
that seemed to me the most vital and profound.
I discovered that the art that he preferred was a
kind of brilliant impressionism. He did not care
much about the truth of it to life; the desirable quality
seemed to him to be a sort of arresting daring of
statement. He was not a narrow-minded man at
all; he had read a great many books, both old and
new, but he valued specious qualities above everything,
and books which seemed to me to be like the crackling
of thorns under a pot seemed to him to be the glowing
heart of the fire. The weakness of my young friend’s
case lay, I thought, in the fact that he not only undervalued
experience, but that he evidently did not believe that
experience could have anything to say to him.
With the swift insight of youth, he had discounted
all that, and growing older appeared to him to be a
mere stiffening and hardening of prejudices.
Where he seemed to me to fail was in any appreciation
of tender, simple, wistful things; as I grow older,
I feel the pathetic charm of life, its hints, its sorrow,
its silence, its infinite dreams, its darkening horizon,
more and more acutely. Of all this he was impatient.
His idea was to rejoice in his strength; he loved,
I felt, the sparkling facets of the gem, the dazzling
broken reflections, rather than its inner heart of
light. The question which pressed on me with
a painful insistence was this: “Was he
wholly in the right? was I wholly in the wrong?”
I am inclined, of course, to believe that men do their
best artistic work in their youth, while they are
passionately just, charmingly indiscreet, relentlessly
severe; before they have learnt the art of compromise
or the force of limitations. I suppose that I,
like all other middle-aged writers, am tempted to
think that my own youth is miraculously prolonged;
that I have not lost in fire what I have gained in
patience and width of view. But he would believe
that I have lost the glow, and that what seems to
me to be gentle and beautiful experience is but the
closing in of weariness and senility. I have
often thought myself that an increase of accomplishment
goes hand-in-hand with an increased tameness of spirit.
And the most pathetic of all writers are, to my mind,
those whose mastery of their art grows as the initial
impulse declines. But my young friend appeared
to me to value only prodigal and fantastic vigour,
and to prefer the sword-dance to the minuet.