Tommy bowed his head.
But she hoped he would let her be his very dear friend. It would be the proudest recollection of her life that Mr. Sandys had entertained such feelings for her.
Nothing could have been better, and he should have found difficulty in concealing his delight; but this strange Tommy was really feeling his part again. It was an unforced tear that came to his eye. Quite naturally he looked long and wistfully at her.
“Jerry, Jerry!” he articulated huskily, and whatever the words mean in these circumstances he really meant; then he put his lips to her hand for the first and last time, and so was gone, broken but brave. He was in splendid fettle for writing that evening. Wild animals sleep after gorging, but it sent this monster, refreshed, to his work.
Nevertheless, the incident gave him some uneasy reflections. Was he, indeed, a monster? was one that he could dodge, as yet; but suppose Mrs. Jerry told his dear Elspeth of what had happened? She had said that she would not, but a secret in Mrs. Jerry’s breast was like her pug in her arms, always kicking to get free. “Elspeth,” said Tommy, “what do you say to going north and having a sight of Thrums again?”
He knew what she would say. They had been talking for years of going back; it was the great day that all her correspondence with old friends in Thrums looked forward to.
“They made little of you, Tommy,” she said, “when we left; but I’m thinking they will all be at their windows when you go back.”
“Oh,” replied Thomas, “that’s nothing. But I should like to shake Corp by the hand again.”
“And Aaron,” said Elspeth. She was knitting stockings for Aaron at that moment.
“And Gavinia,” Tommy said, “and the Dominie.”
“And Ailie.”
And then came an awkward pause, for they were both thinking of that independent girl called Grizel. She was seldom discussed. Tommy was oddly shy about mentioning her name; he would have preferred Elspeth to mention it: and Elspeth had misgivings that this was so, with the result that neither could say “Grizel” without wondering what was in the other’s mind. Tommy had written twice to Grizel, the first time unknown to Elspeth, but that was in the days when the ladies of the penny numbers were disturbing him, and, against his better judgment (for well he knew she would never stand it), he had begun his letter with these mad words: “Dear Little Woman.” She did not answer this, but soon afterwards she wrote to Elspeth, and he was not mentioned in the letter proper, but it carried a sting in its tail. “P.S.,” it said “How is Sentimental Tommy?”
None but a fiend in human shape could have written thus, and Elspeth put her protecting arms round her brother. “Now we know what Grizel is,” she said. “I am done with her now.”
But when Tommy had got back his wind he said nobly: “I’ll call her no names. If this is how she likes to repay me for—for all my kindnesses, let her. But, Elspeth, if I have the chance, I shall go on being good to her just the same.”