known, they value no more to kill and devour a captive
taken in war, than we do to kill an ox or eat mutton.
I then concluded it necessarily followed, that these
people were no more murderers than Christians, who
many times put whole troops to the sword, after throwing
down their arms.—Again I considered, that
if I fell upon them, I should be as much in the wrong
as the Spaniards, who had committed the greatest barbarities
upon these people who had never offended them in their
whole lives; as if the kingdom of Spain was eminent
for a race of men without common compassion to the
miserable, a principal sign of the most generous temper:
these considerations made me pause, and made me think
I had taken wrong measures in my resolution: I
now argued with myself, it was better for me never
to attack, but to remain undiscovered as long as I
possibly could; that an opposite conduct would certainly
prove destructive; for as it was scarcely to be supposed
I could kill them all, I might either be overpowered
by the remaining, or that some escaping, might bring
thousands to my certain destruction. And, indeed,
religion took their part so much as to convince me
how contrary it was to my duty to be guilty of shedding
human blood, innocent as to my particular, whatever
they are to one another: that I had nothing to
do with it, but leave it to the God of all power and
dominion, as I said before, to do therein what seemed
convenient to his heavenly wisdom. And, therefore,
on my knees I thanked the Almighty for delivering
me from blood guiltiness, and begged his protection
that I might never fall into their hands.
Thus giving over an attempt which I had rashly begun,
I never ascended the hill on that occasion afterwards:
I only re-removed my boat, which lay on the other
side of the island, and every thing that belonged to
her, towards the east, into a little cove; that there
might not be the least shadow of any boat near, or
habitation upon the island.—My castle then
became my cell, keeping always retired in it, except
when I went out to milk my she-goats, and order my
little flock in the wood, which was quite out of danger:
for sure I was that these savages never came here
with expectations to find any thing, consequently never
wandered from the coast; however, as they might have
several times been on shore, as well before as after
my dreadful apprehensions, I looked back with horror
to think in what state I might have been, had I suddenly
met them slenderly armed; with one gun only loaded
with small shot; and how great would have been my
amazement, if, instead of seeing the print of one
man’s foot, I had perceived fifteen, or twenty
savages, who having once set their eyes upon me, by
the swiftness of their feet would have left me no
possibility of escaping? These thoughts would
sink my very soul, so that I would fall into a deep
melancholy, till such time as the consideration of
my gratitude to the Divine Being moved it from my
heart. I then fell into a contemplation of the