“Soul-struck, and yielding
to his fate,
My father left his castle
gate.
‘Thou,’ he would
cry, with flowing eyes,
’That moment wert the
sacrifice!
Little, alas! avails to thee
Wealth, honours, titles, ancestry;
All lost by me! I dar’d
to lift
On high thy welfare, as a
gift!
To save thee, dearest, dar’d
resign
Thy worldly good! it was not
mine!
But, O! I felt around
thee twin’d
My very self,—my
heart and mind!
All that may chance is dead
to me,
Save only as it touches thee!
Could self-infliction but
atone
For one who lives in thee
alone;
If my repentance and my tears
Could spare thy future smiling
years,
The fatal curse should only
rest
Upon this firm, though guilty
breast?
Yet, tendering from thy vessel’s
freight
Offerings of such exceeding
weight,
And free thee from one earthly
chain!
Envy and over-weening hate
Would on thy orphan greatness
wait;
Folly that supple nature bend
For parasites to scorn thy
friend;
And pamper’d vanity
incline
To wilful blindness such as
mine!
“’Thee
to the altar yet I bring!
Hear me, my Saviour and my
King!
Again I for my child resign
All worldly good! but make
her thine!
Let her soft footsteps gently
move,
Nor waken grief, nor injure
love;
Carelessly trampling on the
ground
That priceless gem, so rarely
found;
That treasure, which, should
angels guard,
Would all their vigilance
reward!
“’My
mind refuses still to fear
She should be cold or insincere;
That aught like meanness should
debase
One of our rash and wayward
race,
No! most I dread intemperate
pride,
Deaf ardour, reckless, and
untried,
With firm controul and skilful
rein,
Its hurrying fever to restrain!
“’Others
might wish their soul’s delight
Should be most lovely to the
sight;
And beauty vainly I ador’d,
Serv’d with my eye,
my tongue, my sword;
Nay, let me not from truth
depart!
Enshrin’d and worship’d
it at heart.
Oft, when her mother fix’d
my gaze,
Enwrapt, on bright perfection’s
blaze,
Hopes the imperious spell
beguil’d,
Transcendant thus to see my
child:
But now, for charms of form
or face,
Save only purity and grace;
Save sweetness, which all
rage disarms,
Would lure an infant to her
arms
In instantaneous love; and
make
A heart, like mine, with fondness
ache;
I little care, so she be free
From such remorse as preys
on me!’
“My dearest
father!—Yet he grew
Profoundly anxious, as he
knew
More of the dangers lurking
round;
But I was on enchanted ground!
Delighted with my minstrel