For I had made thee, infant as thou art,
Queen of my hopes, my leisure, and my heart;
Given thee its happiest laugh, its sweetest tear,
And all I found or conquer’d every year.
“I blame me now I let
thy sports offend
Old Time, and
laid thy snare within his path
To make him falter,
as it often hath;
For he grew angry
soon, and held his breath,
And hurried on,
in frightful league with Death,
To make the way through which
my footsteps bend,
Late rich in all that social
scenes attend,
A desert; and
with thee I droop, I die,
Beneath the look
of his malignant eye.
“Me do triumphant heroes
call
To grace with harp their festal
hall?
O! must my voice awake the
song?—
My skill the artful tale prolong?
Yes! I am call’d—it
is my doom!
Unhappily, ye know not whom,
Nor what, impatient ye demand!
How hostile now the fever’d
hand,
Across these chords unwilling
thrown,
To echo plainings of my own!
Little indeed can ye divine
What song ye ask who call
for mine!
“Till now, before the
courtly crowd
I humbly and I gaily bow’d;
The blush was not to shame
allied
Which on my glowing
cheek I wore;
No lowly seemings pain’d
nay pride,
My heart was laughing
at the core;
And sometimes, as the stream
of song
Bore me with eddying haste
along,
My father’s spirit would
arise,
And speak strange meaning
from these eyes,
At which a conscious cheek
would quail,
A stern and lofty bearing
fail:
Then could a chieftain condescend
In me to recognize his friend!
Then could a warrior low incline
His eye, when it encounter’d
mine!
A tone can make the guilty
start!
A glance can pierce the conscious
heart,
Encountering memory in its
flight,
Most waywardly! Such
wounds are slight;
But I withdraw the painful
light!
“Fair lords
and princes! many a time
For you I wove my pictur’d
rhyme;
Refin’d new thoughts
and fancies crude
In deep and careful solitude;
’And, when my task was
finish’d, came
To seek the meed of praise
or blame;
While, even then, untir’d
I strove
To serve beneath the yoke
of love.
Whene’er I mark’d
a fearful look,
When pride, or when resentment,
spoke,
I bent the tenor of my strain,
And trembled lest it were
in vain.
By many an undiscover’d
wile
I brought the pallid lip to
smile,
Clear’d the maz’d
thought for ampler scope,
Sustain’d the flagging
wings of hope;
And threw a mantle over care
Such as the blooming Graces
wear!
I made the friend resist his
pride,