My manner chill’d, restrain’d my love!
E’en at the time my spirit died
With aching tenderness, my eye,
Encountering thine, was cold and dry!
To maim intention, fondness,—came
The sudden impotence of shame.
Thy happiness was thriftless wealth,
For I could only hoard by stealth!
Affection’s brightly-glowing ray
Shone with such strong, o’erpowering sway,
That service fainted by the way!
“But now
an impulse, like despair,
Makes me these inner foldings
tear!
With desperate effort bids
me wrest
The yearning secret from my
breast!
Far be the thought that any
blame
Can fix on thy beloved name!
The hapless Minstrel may not
feign;
But thou, I know, canst all
explain—
Yet let me from this place
depart,
To nurse my fainting, sicken’d
heart!
Yet let me in a cloister dwell,
The veiled inmate of a cell;
To raise this cowering soul
by prayer!—
Reproach can never enter there!
“Turn quickly
hence that look severe!
And, oh! in mercy, not a tear!
The most profuse of parents,
thou
Didst every wish fulfil—allow;
Till that which us’d
to please—invite,
Had ceas’d to dazzle
and delight;
And all thy gifts almost despis’d,
The love that gave alone I
priz’d.
“My yielding
spirit bows the knee;
My will profoundly bends to
thee:
But paltry vanities resign’d,
Wealth, gauds, and honours
left behind,
I only wanted, thought to
quit
This strange, wild world,
and make me fit
For one of better promise—given
To such as think not this
their heaven!
Nay, almost in my breast arose
A hope I scarcely dare disclose;
A hope that life, from tumult
free,—
A life so harmless
and so pure,
A calm so shelter’d,
so secure,
At length might have a charm
for thee!
That supplications, patient,
strong,
Might not remain unanswer’d
long!
And all temptations from thee
cast,
The altar prove thy home at
last!”
The artless Isabel
prevails—
That hard, unbending spirit
fails!
Not many words her lips had
past,
Ere round her his fond arms
were cast;
But, while his vengeful conscience
prais’d,
He chid; and, frowning, would
have rais’d
Till her resistance and her
tears,
The vehemence
of youthful grief,
Her paleness, his paternal
fears,
Compell’d
him to afford relief;
And forc’d the agonizing
cry—
That he could never her deny!
Of what ambition
sought, beguil’d,
His crimes thus fruitless!
and his child,
The beautiful, the rich and
young—
Now, in his most
triumphant hours!