confessions of awful perplexity which equally before
and after his change Dr. Newman makes. Those who
have never doubted, who can no more imagine the practical
difficulties accompanying a great change of belief
than they can imagine a change of belief itself, will
meet with much that to them will seem beyond pardon,
in the actual events of a change, involving such issues
and such interests, made so deliberately and cautiously,
with such hesitation and reluctance, and in so long
a time; they will be able to point to many moments
in it when it will be easy to say that more or less
ought to have been said, more or less ought to have
been done. Much more will those who are on the
side of doubt, who acquiesce in, or who desire the
overthrow of existing hopes and beliefs, rejoice in
such a frank avowal of the difficulties of religion
and the perplexities of so earnest a believer, and
make much of their having driven such a man to an alternative
so obnoxious and so monstrous to most Englishmen.
It is a book full of minor premisses, to which many
opposite majors will be fitted. But whatever
may be thought of many details, the effect and lesson
of the whole will not be lost on minds of any generosity,
on whatever side they may be; they will be touched
with the confiding nobleness which has kept back nothing,
which has stated its case with its weak points and
its strong, and with full consciousness of what was
weak as well as of what was strong, which has surrendered
its whole course of conduct, just as it has been,
to be scrutinised, canvassed, and judged. What
we carry away from following such a history is something
far higher and more solemn than any controversial
inferences; and it seems almost like a desecration
to make, as we say, capital out of it, to strengthen
mere argument, to confirm a theory, or to damage an
opponent.
The truth, in fact, is, that the interest is personal
much more than controversial. Those who read
it as a whole, and try to grasp the effect of all
its portions compared together and gathered into one,
will, it seems to us, find it hard to bend into a decisive
triumph for any of the great antagonist systems which
appear in collision. There can be no doubt of
the perfect conviction with which Dr. Newman has taken
his side for good. But while he states the effect
of arguments on his own mind, he leaves the arguments
in themselves as they were, and touches on them, not
for the sake of what they are worth, but to explain
the movements and events of his own course. Not
from any studied impartiality, which is foreign to
his character, but from his strong and keen sense
of what is real and his determined efforts to bring
it out, he avoids the temptation—as it seems
to us, who still believe that he was more right once
than he is now—to do injustice to his former
self and his former position. At any rate, the
arguments to be drawn from this narrative, for or
against England, or for or against Rome, seem to us
very evenly balanced. Of course, such a history