Chivalry eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 220 pages of information about Chivalry.

Chivalry eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 220 pages of information about Chivalry.

And visibly beneath their glare the woman changed.  “My friend, must I not love you any longer?  You would be content with happiness?  Then I am jealous of that happiness! for you are the one friend that I have had, and so dear to me—­Look you!” she said, with a light, wistful laugh, “there have been times when I was afraid of everything you touched, and I hated everything you looked at.  I would not have you stained; I desired to pass my whole life between the four walls of some dingy and eternal gaol, forever alone with you, lest you become like other men.  I would in that period have been the very bread you eat, the least perfume which delights you, the clod you touch in crushing it, and I have often loathed some pleasure I derived from life because I might not transfer it to you undiminished.  For I wanted somehow to make you happy to my own anguish....  It was wicked, I suppose, for the imagining of it made me happy, too.”

Now while he listened to this dear and tranquil speaking, Edward Maudelain’s raised hands had fallen like so much lead, and remembering his own nature, he longed for annihilation, before she had appraised his vileness.  He said: 

“With reason Augustine crieth out against the lust of the eyes.  ’For pleasure seeketh objects beautiful, melodious, fragrant, savory, and soft; but this disease those contrary as well, not for the sake of suffering annoyance, but out of the lust of making trial of them!’ Ah! ah! too curiously I planned my own damnation, too presumptuously I had esteemed my soul a worthy scapegoat, and I had gilded my enormity with many lies.  Yet indeed, indeed, I had believed brave things, I had planned a not ignoble bargain—!  Ey, say, is it not laughable, madame?—­as my birth-right Heaven accords me a penny, and with that only penny I must presently be seeking to bribe Heaven.”

Then he said:  “Yet are we indeed God’s satraps, as but now I cried in my vainglory, and we hold within our palms the destiny of many peoples.  Depardieux!  God is wiser than we are.  Still, Satan offers no unhandsome bribes—­bribes that are tangible and sure.  For Satan, too, is wiser than we are.”

They stood like effigies, lit by the broad, unsparing splendor of the morning, but again their kindling eyes had met, and again the man shuddered.  “Decide! oh, decide very quickly, my only friend!” he said, “for throughout I am all filth!”

Closer she drew to him, and laid one hand upon each shoulder.  “O my only friend!” she breathed, with red lax lips which were very near to his, “through these six years I have ranked your friendship as the chief of all my honors! and I pray God with an entire heart that I may die so soon as I have done what I must do to-day!”

Now Maudelain was trying to smile, but he could not quite manage it.  “God save King Richard!” said the priest.  “For by the cowardice and greed and ignorance of little men is Salomon himself confounded, and by them is Hercules lightly unhorsed.  Were I Leviathan, whose bones were long ago picked clean by pismires, I could perform nothing against the will of many human pismires.  Therefore do you pronounce my doom.”

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