of her own desires, of taking her stand out of
herself, and looking at her own life as an insignificant
part of a divinely guided whole. She read on
and on in the old book, devouring eagerly the dialogues
with the invisible Teacher, the pattern of sorrow,
the source of all strength; returning to it after
she had been called away, and reading until the sun
went down behind the willows. With all the hurry
of an imagination that could never rest in the
present, she sat in the deepening twilight forming
plans of self-humiliation and entire devotedness, and,
in the ardor of first discovery, renunciation
seemed to her the entrance into that satisfaction
which she had so long been craving in vain. She
had not perceived—how could she until
she had lived longer?—the inmost truth
of the old monk’s outpourings, that renunciation
remains sorrow, though a sorrow borne willingly.
Maggie was still panting for happiness, and was
in ecstasy because she had found the key to it.
She knew nothing of doctrines and systems—of
mysticism or quietism; but this voice out of the
far-off middle ages was the direct communication
of a human soul’s belief and experience, and
came to Maggie as an unquestioned message.
I suppose that is the reason why the small, old-fashioned
book, for which you need only pay sixpence at a book-stall,
works miracles to this day, turning bitter waters into
sweetness, while expensive sermons and treatises,
newly issued, leave all things as they were before.
It was written down by a hand that waited for
the heart’s promptings; it is the chronicle of
a solitary hidden anguish, struggle, trust and
triumph,—not written on velvet cushions
to teach endurance to those who are treading with bleeding
feet on the stones. And so it remains to all
time a lasting record of human needs and human
consolations; the voice of a brother who, ages ago,
felt, and suffered, and renounced,—in the
cloister, perhaps, with serge gown and tonsured
head, with much chanting and long fasts, and with
a fashion of speech different from ours,—but
under the same silent, far-off heavens, and with
the same passionate desires, the same strivings,
the same failures, the same weariness. [Footnote:
The Mill on the Floss, Book IV., chapter III.]
Life now has a meaning for Maggie, its secret has
been in some measure opened. Only by bitter experiences
does she at last learn the full meaning of that word;
but all her after-life is told for us in order that
the depth and breadth and height of that meaning may
be unfolded. Very soon Maggie is heard saying,
“Our life is determined
for us—and it makes the mind very free when
we
give up wishing, and only
think of bearing what is laid upon us, and
doing what is given us to
do.”
It is George Eliot who really speaks these words;
hers is the thought which inspires them.
Yet Maggie has not learned to give up wishing; and
the sorrow, the tragedy of her life comes in consequence.
She is pledged in love to Philip, the son of the bitter
enemy of her family, and is attracted to Stephen, the
lover of her cousin Lucy. A long contest is fought
out in her life between attraction and duty; between
individual preferences and moral obligations.
The struggle is hard, as when Stephen avows his love,
and she replies,—