the plain story of their life be to them a sad condemnation,
yet what will be answered when it shall be told concerning
them, that they despised God’s mercies, and feared
not His angry judgments; that they regarded not His
Word, and loved not His excellences; that they were
not persuaded by the promises nor affrighted by His
threatenings; that they neither would accept His government
nor His blessings; that all the sad stories that ever
happened in both the worlds (in all which Himself did
escape till the day of His death, and was not concerned
in them save only that He was called upon by every
one of them, which He ever heard or saw or was told
of, to repentance), that all these were sent to Him
in vain? But can not the accuser truly say to
the Judge concerning such persons, “They were
Thine by creation, but mine by their own choice; Thou
didst redeem them indeed, but they sold themselves
to me for a trifle, or for an unsatisfying interest;
Thou diedst for them, but they obeyed my commandments;
I gave them nothing, I promised them nothing but the
filthy pleasures of a night, or the joys of madness,
or the delights of a disease; I never hanged upon
the cross three long hours for them, nor endured the
labors of a poor life thirty-three years together for
their interest; only when they were Thine by the merit
of Thy death, they quickly became mine by the demerit
of their ingratitude; and when Thou hadst clothed
their soul with Thy robe, and adorned them by Thy
graces, we stript them naked as their shame, and only
put on a robe of darkness, and they thought themselves
secure and went dancing to their grave like a drunkard
to a fight, or a fly unto a candle; and therefore
they that did partake with us in our faults must divide
with us in our portion and fearful interest.”
This is a sad story because it ends in death, and
there is nothing to abate or lessen the calamity.
It concerns us therefore to consider in time that he
that tempts us will accuse us, and what he calls pleasant
now he shall then say was nothing, and all the gains
that now invite earthly souls and mean persons to
vanity, was nothing but the seeds of folly, and the
harvest in pain and sorrow and shame eternal.
But then, since this horror proceeds upon the account
of so many accusers, God hath put it in our power
by a timely accusation of ourselves in the tribunal
of the court Christian, to prevent all the arts of
aggravation which at doomsday shall load foolish and
undiscerning souls. He that accuses himself of
his crimes here, means to forsake them, and looks upon
them on all sides, and spies out his deformity, and
is taught to hate them, he is instructed and prayed
for, he prevents the anger of God and defeats the
devil’s malice, and, by making shame the instrument
of repentance, he takes away the sting, and makes
that to be his medicine which otherwise would be his
death: and, concerning this exercise, I shall
only add what the patriarch of Alexandria told an old
religious person in his hermitage. Having asked
him what he found in that desert, he was answered,
“Only this, to judge and condemn myself perpetually;
that is the employment of my solitude.”
The patriarch answered, “There is no other way.”
By accusing ourselves we shall make the devil’s
malice useless, and our own consciences clear, and
be reconciled to the Judge by the severities of an
early repentance, and then we need to fear no accusers.