He approached me and was stooping to kiss me.  I cannot account for my action or condemn it sufficiently.  It was hysterical—­the outcome of an overstrung, highly excitable, and nervous temperament.  Perhaps my vanity was wounded, and my tendency to strike when touched was up in arms.  The calm air of ownership with which Harold drew near annoyed me, or, as Sunday-school teachers would explain it, Satan got hold of me.  He certainly placed a long strong riding-whip on the table beneath my hand!  As Harold stooped with the intention of pressing his lips to mine, I quickly raised the whip and brought it with all my strength right across his face.  The instant the whip had descended I would have smashed my arm on the door-post to recall that blow.  But that was impossible.  It had left a great weal on the healthy sun-tanned skin.  His moustache had saved his lips, but it had caught his nose, the left cheek, had blinded the left eye, and had left a cut on the temple from which drops of blood were rolling down his cheek and staining his white coat.  A momentary gleam of anger shot into his eyes and he gave a gasp, whether of surprise, pain, or annoyance, I know not.  He made a gesture towards me.  I half expected and fervently wished he would strike.  The enormity of what I had done paralysed me.  The whip fell from my fingers and I dropped on to a low lounge behind me, and placing my elbows on my knees crouchingly buried my face in my hands; my hair tumbled softly over my shoulders and reached the floor, as though to sympathetically curtain my humiliation.  Oh, that Harold would thrash me severely!  It would have infinitely relieved me.  I had done a mean unwomanly thing in thus striking a man, who by his great strength and sex was debarred retaliation.  I had committed a violation of self-respect and common decency; I had given a man an ignominious blow in the face with a riding-whip.  And that man was Harold Beecham, who with all his strength and great stature was so wondrously gentle—­who had always treated my whims and nonsense with something like the amused tolerance held by a great Newfoundland for the pranks of a kitten.

The clock struck eleven.

“A less stinging rebuke would have served your purpose.  I had no idea that a simple caress from the man whose proposal of marriage you had just accepted would be considered such an unpardonable familiarity.”

Harold’s voice fell clearly, calmly, cuttingly on the silence.  He moved away to the other end of the room and I heard the sound of water.

A desire filled me to tell him that I did not think he had attempted a familiarity, but that I had been mad.  I wished to say I could not account for my action, but I was dumb.  My tongue refused to work, and I felt as though I would choke.  The splash of the water came from the other end of the room.  I knew he must be suffering acute pain in his eye.  A far lighter blow had kept me sleepless a whole night.  A fear possessed me that I might have permanently injured his sight.  The splash of water ceased.  His footfall stopped beside me.  I could feel he was within touching distance, but I did not move.