The Song of the Weary One.
There is no music in my heart,—
No joy within my breast;
In scenes of mirth I have no part,—
In quiet scenes no rest.
Mine is a weariness of life,—
A sickness of the soul;
An ever constant struggling strife,
My feelings to control.
Oh, it was ever—ever thus,
From childhood’s earliest
hour;
My spirits ever were weighed down,
By some mysterious power.
There seemed some dark, unearthly fate,
Around my life to twine;
That which brings joy to other hearts,
Brings mournfulness to mine.
And yet I am too proud to weep,
I never could complain;
And so they deem my spirit feels
No weariness or pain.
They read not in my sunken eye,
And in my faded cheek.
A weight of wretchedness and woe,
That words could never speak.
Oh, ’tis a weary—weary
lot,
To live when joy is gone;—
To feel life has no sunny spot,
Yet still we must live on.
To mingle with the laughing crowd,
Yet feel we are alone;
To know there’s not one human heart
Can understand our own.
Oh, Thou, who sitt’st enthroned
on high,
Who every heart can see,
Look down in pity and in love,
and take me home to thee.
Lines, Inscribed to a Brother.
A New Year’s gift I send to thee,
A volume filled with quaint
old rhymes;
And may it wake the memory
Within thy heart, of olden
times.
When we by the cheerful fireside hearth,
Together conned the glowing
page,
Grave themes, and subjects full of mirth,
Did each by turns our minds
engage.
Oh, then, what rapture filled my heart,
How throbb’d my brow—how
burn’d my brain,
As the poet with his magic art,
Wove the deep mysteries of
his strain.
But now a leaden stupor lies
Upon my dull, inactive soul;
In vain my spirit strives to rise,
From the dark mists that o’er
it roll.
Nor legend old, nor wild romance.
Nor fairy tale, nor minstrel
lyre,
Can with their magic power entrance,
Or one impassion’d thought
inspire.
Thus, like the rosy sunset hues,
Fade fancy’s pictures
from the soul,
The light that youth’s fair skies
imbued,
Is merged in clouds that o’er
us roll.