Unpleased and pensive hence
he takes his way,
At his own peril; for his life must pay.
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Who now but Arcite mourns his bitter fate,
Finds his dear purchase, and repents too
late?
What have I gain’d, he said, in
prison pent,
If I but change my bonds for banishment?
And banish’d from her sight, I suffer
more
In freedom than I felt in bonds before;
Forced from her presence, and condemn’d
to live:
Unwelcome freedom, and unthank’d
reprieve!
Heaven is not, but where Emily abides,
And where she’s absent, all is hell
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Next to my day of birth, was that accursed,
Which bound my friendship to Pirithous
first:
Had I not known that prince, I still had
been
In bondage, and had still Emilia seen:
For though I never can her grace deserve,
’Tis recompence enough to see and
serve.
O Palamon, my kinsman and my friend,
How much more happy fates thy love attend!
Thine is the adventure; thine the victory:
Well has thy fortune turn’d the
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Thou on that angel’s face may’st
feed thine eyes,
In prison, no; but blissful paradise!
Thou daily seest that sun of beauty shine,
And lovest at least in love’s extremest
line.
I mourn in absence, love’s eternal
night;
And who can tell but since thou hast her
sight,
And art a comely, young, and valiant knight,
Fortune (a various power) may cease to
frown,
And by some ways unknown thy wishes crown?
But I, the most forlorn of human kind,
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Nor help can hope, nor remedy can find;
But doom’d to drag my loathsome
life in care,
For my reward, must end it in despair.
Fire, water, air, and earth, and force
of fates,
That governs all, and Heaven that all
creates,
Nor art, nor nature’s hand can ease
my grief;
Nothing but death, the wretch’s
last relief:
Then farewell youth, and all the joys
that dwell,
With youth and life, and life itself farewell!
But why, alas! do mortal men
in vain 420
Of fortune, fate, or Providence complain?
God gives us what he knows our wants require,
And better things than those which we
desire:
Some pray for riches; riches they obtain;
But, watch’d by robbers, for their
wealth are slain:
Some pray from prison to be freed; and
come,
When guilty of their vows, to fall at
home;
Murder’d by those they trusted with
their life,
A favour’d servant, or a bosom wife.
Such dear-bought blessings happen every
day, 430
Because we know not for what things to
pray.
Like drunken sots about the street we
roam;
Well knows the sot he has a certain home;
Yet knows not how to find the uncertain
place,