“You bid
me pray? aye, I have prayed!
Each cliff and cave, each
rock and glen,
Have heard my
ardent lips invade
The ear of Heaven,—again,
again.
And in the secret
hour of night,
When all-revealing darkness
brings
Its brighter world
than this of light—
My spirit, borne on wizard
wings,
Hath won its upward
way afar,
And ranged the shoreless sea
of dreams—
Hath touched at
many a wheeling star
That shines beyond these solar
beams;
And on the trackless
deep of thought,
Like Him, who found this Western
World,
’Mid doubt
and storm my passage wrought,
Till weary fancy’s wing
was furled—
And, as the sky-bent
eagle, borne
Down by the lightning blast
of heaven,
So was my outcast
spirit torn,
And backward to its dwelling
driven.
Yet not in vain,
perchance, my tears,
My penitence, my patient prayer,
For, softened
with the flow of years,
My breast is lightened of
its care.
And once at night
when meteors flew
Down on their glittering wings
from heaven,
My mother’s
spirit met my view,
Whispering of peace and sin
forgiven!
Yet, though my
lip to thee confess,
My wrestling bosom’s
sweet relief,
Think not I count
my crime the less,
That pitying Heaven hath soothed
my grief.
No—yon
wild rose hath sweet perfume
To scatter on this desert
air;
Yet, hid beneath
its fragrant bloom,
Sharp thorns are set, the
flesh to tear.
And thus, repentance,
while it brings
Forgiveness to the broken
heart,
Still leaves contrition’s
thousand stings
To waken sorrow with their
smart.
XVI.
“Such is
my story—this my home,—
And I the monarch of the dell—
Above my head,
the forest dome,—
Around, the battlements that
swell
To heaven, and
make my castle strong.
My messengers are winds that
lave
Far reedy shores,
and bring me song,
Blent with the murmurs of
the wave.
And birds of every
rainbow hue,
The antelope, and timid deer,
The wild goat
mingling with the blue
Of heaven on yonder rock,
are here.
And oft at morn,
the mocking-bird
Doth greet me with its sweetest
lay;
The wood-dove,
where the bush is stirred,
Looks from its cover on my
way.
I would not break
the spider’s thread,—
The buzzing insect dances
free;
I crush no toad
beneath my tread,—
The lizard crawls in liberty!
I harm no living
thing; my sway
Of peace hath soothed the
grumbling bear,—
The wolf walks
by in open day,
And fawns upon me from his
lair.
Aye, and my heart
hath bowed so low,
I gather in this solitude,
Joy from the love
that seems to flow
From these brute tenants of
the leafy wood.