to that work, and so be sooner done with it.
Money, or place, or even power, was nothing but means
to him: other men valued them because of their
influence on others. As his work in the world
was only the development of himself, it was different,
of course. What would it matter to his soul the
day after death, if millions called his name aloud
in blame or praise? Would he hear or answer then?
What would it matter to him then, if he had starved
with them or ruled over them? People talked of
benevolence. What would it matter to him then,
the misery or happiness of those yet working in this
paltry life of ours? In so far as the exercise
of kindly emotions or self-denial developed the higher
part of his nature, it was to be commended; as for
its effect on others, that he had nothing to do with.
He practised self-denial constantly to strengthen
the benevolent instincts. That very morning he
had given his last dollar to Joe Byers, a half-starved
cripple. “Chucked it at me,” Joe said,
“like as he’d give a bone to a dog, and
be damned to him! Who thanks him?” To tell
the truth, you will find no fairer exponent than this
Stephen Holmes of the great idea of American sociology,—that
the object of life is to grow. Circumstances
had forced it on him, partly. Sitting now in his
room, where he was counting the cost of becoming a
merchant prince, he could look back to the time of
a boyhood passed in the depths of ignorance and vice.
He knew what this Self within him was; he knew how
it had forced him to grope his way up, to give this
hungry, insatiate soul air and freedom and knowledge.
All men around him were doing the same,—thrusting
and jostling and struggling, up, up. It was the
American motto, Go ahead; mothers taught it to their
children; the whole system was a scale of glittering
prizes. He at least saw the higher meaning of
the truth; he had no low ambitions. To lift this
self up into a higher range of being when it had done
with the uses of this,—that was his work.
Self-salvation, self-elevation,—the ideas
that give birth to, and destroy half of our Christianity,
half of our philanthropy! Sometimes sleeping
instincts in the man struggled up to assert a divinity
more terrible than this growing self-existent soul
that he purified and analyzed day by day: a depth
of tender pity for outer pain; a fierce longing for
rest, on something, in something, he cared not what.
He stifled such rebellious promptings,—called
them morbid. He called it morbid, too, the passion
now that chilled his strong blood, and wrung out these
clammy drops on his forehead, at the mere thought of
this girl below.
He shut the door of his room tightly: he had no time to-day for lounging visitors.
For Holmes, quiet and steady, was sought for, if not popular, even in the free-and-easy West; one of those men who are unwillingly masters among men. Just and mild, always; with a peculiar gift that made men talk their best thoughts to him, knowing they would be understood; if any core of eternal flint lay under the simple, truthful manner of the man, nobody saw it.