I became suddenly aware that here I was not my own
master. My tongue clave to the root of my mouth;
I could not say a word. Then I myself was turned
round, and softly, firmly, irresistibly pushed out
of the gate. My mother, who clung to me, added
a little, no doubt, to the force against me, whatever
it was, for she was frightened, and opposed herself
to any endeavour on my part to regain freedom of movement;
but all that her feeble force could do against mine
must have been little. Several other men around
me seemed to be moved as I was. M. Barbou, for
one, made a still more decided effort to turn back,
for, being a bachelor, he had no one to restrain him.
Him I saw turned round as you would turn a
roulette.
He was thrown against my wife in his tempestuous course,
and but that she was so light and elastic in her tread,
gliding out straight and softly like one of the saints,
I think he must have thrown her down. And at
that moment, silent as we all were, his ’
Pardon,
Madame, mille pardons, Madame,’ and his
tone of horror at his own indiscretion, seemed to
come to me like a voice out of another life. Partially
roused before by the sudden impulse of resistance
I have described, I was yet more roused now.
I turned round, disengaging myself from my mother.
‘Where are we going? why are we thus cast forth?
My friends, help!’ I cried. I looked round
upon the others, who, as I have said, had also awakened
to a possibility of resistance. M. de Bois-Sombre,
without a word, came and placed himself by my side;
others started from the crowd. We turned to resist
this mysterious impulse which had sent us forth.
The crowd surged round us in the uncertain light.
Just then there was a dull soft sound, once, twice,
thrice repeated. We rushed forward, but too late.
The gates were closed upon us. The two folds
of the great Porte St. Lambert, and the little postern
for foot-passengers, all at once, not hurriedly, as
from any fear of us, but slowly, softly, rolled on
their hinges and shut—in our faces.
I rushed forward with all my force and flung myself
upon the gate. To what use? it was so closed
as no mortal could open it. They told me after,
for I was not aware at the moment, that I burst forth
with cries and exclamations, bidding them ‘Open,
open in the name of God!’ I was not aware of
what I said, but it seemed to me that I heard a voice
of which nobody said anything to me, so that it would
seem to have been unheard by the others, saying with
a faint sound as of a trumpet, ’Closed—in
the name of God.’ It might be only an echo,
faintly brought back to me, of the words I had myself
said.
There was another change, however, of which no one
could have any doubt. When I turned round from
these closed doors, though the moment before the darkness
was such that we could not see the gates closing, I
found the sun shining gloriously round us, and all
my fellow-citizens turning with one impulse, with
a sudden cry of joy, to hail the full day.