which in more cheerful days are quite forgot; and
these cheerful days drop out of memory for the time.
Hearing such a man speak, if he speak out his heart
to you, you think him inconsistent, perhaps you think
him insincere. You think he is saying more than
he truly feels. It is not so; he feels and believes
it all at the time. But he is taking a one-sided
view of things; he is undergoing the misery of it
acutely for the time, but by-and-by he will see things
from quite a different point. A very eminent man
(there can be no harm in referring to a case which
he himself made so public) wrote and published something
about his miserable home. He was quite
sincere, I do not doubt. He thought so at the
time. He was miserable just then; and
so, looking back on past years, he could see nothing
but misery. But the case was not really so, one
could feel sure. There had been a vast deal of
enjoyment about his home and his lot; it was forgotten
then. A man in very low spirits, reading over
his diary, somehow lights upon and dwells upon all
the sad and wounding things; he involuntarily skips
the rest, or reads them with but faint perception
of their meaning. In reading the very Bible, he
does the like thing. He chances upon that which
is in unison with his present mood. I think there
is no respect in which this great law of the association
of ideas holds more strictly true than in the power
of a present state of mind, or a present state of
outward circumstances, to bring up vividly before
us all such states in our past history. We are
depressed, we are worried; and when we look back,
all our departed days of worry and depression appear
to start up and press themselves upon our view to the
exclusion of anything else; so that we are ready to
think that we have never been otherwise than depressed
and worried all our life. But when more cheerful
times come, they suggest only such times of cheerfulness,
and no effort will bring back the depression vividly
as when we felt it. It is not selfishness or
heartlessness, it is the result of an inevitable law
of mind, that people in happy circumstances should
resolutely believe that it is a happy world after all;
for, looking back, and looking around, the mind refuses
to take distinct note of anything that is not somewhat
akin to its present state. And so, if any ordinary
man, who is not a distempered genius or a great fool,
tells you that he is always miserable, don’t
believe him. He feels so now, but he does not
always feel so. There are periods of brightening
in the darkest lot. Very, very few live in unvarying
gloom. Not but that there is something very pitiful
(by which I mean deserving of pity) in what may be
termed the Micawber style of mind,—in the
stage of hysteric oscillations between joy and misery.
Thoughtless readers of “David Copperfield”
laugh at Mr. Micawber, and his rapid passages from
the depth of despair to the summit of happiness, and
back again. But if you have seen or experienced