sky, or even the flickering tints of the green creeper
on the wall with its crimson cornucopias filled with
hot sunshine. She liked clear, vital colors,
this girl,—the crimsons and blues.
They answered her, somehow. They could speak.
There were things in the world that like herself were
marred,—did not understand,—were
hungry to know: the gray sky, the mud swamps,
the tawny lichens. She cried sometimes, looking
at them, hardly knowing why: she could not help
it, with a vague sense of loss. It seemed at
those times so dreary for them to be alive,—or
for her. Other things her eyes were quicker to
see than ours: delicate or grand lines, which
she perpetually sought for unconsciously,—in
the homeliest things, the very soft curling of the
woollen yarn in her fingers, as in the eternal sculpture
of the mountains. Was it the disease of her injured
brain that made all things alive to her,—that
made her watch, in her ignorant way, the grave hills,
the flashing, victorious rivers, look pitifully into
the face of some dingy mushroom trodden in the mud
before it scarce had lived, just as we should look
into human faces to know what they would say to us?
Was it the weakness and ignorance that made everything
she saw or touched nearer, more human to her than to
you or me? She never got used to living as other
people do; these sights and sounds did not come to
her common, hackneyed. Why, sometimes, out in
the hills, in the torrid quiet of summer noons, she
had knelt by the shaded pools, and buried her hands
in the great slumberous beds of water-lilies, her
blood curdling in a feverish languor, a passioned
trance, from which she roused herself, weak and tired.
She had no self-poised artist sense, this Lois,—knew
nothing of Nature’s laws. Yet sometimes,
watching the dun sea of the prairie rise and fall
in the crimson light of early morning, or, in the farms,
breathing the blue air trembling up to heaven exultant
with the life of bird and forest, she forgot the poor
coarse thing she was, some coarse weight fell off,
and something within, not the sickly Lois of the town,
went out, free, like an exile dreaming of home.
You tell me, that, doubtless, in the wreck of the
creature’s brain, there were fragments of some
artistic insight that made her thus rise above the
level of her daily life, drunk with the mere beauty
of form and color. I do not know,—not
knowing how sham or real a thing you mean by artistic
insight. But I do know that the clear light I
told you of shone for this girl dimly through this
beauty of form and color; and ignorant, with no words
for her thoughts, she believed in it as the Highest
that she knew. I think it came to her thus an
imperfect language, (not an outward show of tints
and lines, as to some artists,)—a language,
the same that Moses heard when he stood alone, with
nothing between his naked soul and God, but the desert
and the mountain and the bush that burned with fire.
I think the weak soul of the girl staggered from its