left the party, and hastened to the gentleman’s
house, and pointed out in such strong colours the
folly, as well as the bad consequences of his behaviour,
that he sent them away, assuring them that he would
dress himself and follow them immediately. But
an hour having elapsed, and no bridegroom appearing,
the two friends again set out to inquire into the
cause of the delay, which seemed to them more than
ever extraordinary. They had just arrived at
the foot of his staircase, when they heard the report
of a pistol. They hastened to ascend, and having
forced open the door of the young man’s apartment,
they found him dead upon the floor, weltering in his
blood. They were so shocked at the sight before
them, that they could not return to announce the fatal
news, but instantly dispatched a servant for that
purpose. It is more easy to conceive than describe
the consternation such a piece of intelligence was
likely to throw every one into; but the situation of
the bride was most to be pitied; she not only lost
a lover just on the point of being her husband, but
fancied that he had received some calumnious information
which caused him to prefer death to the necessity of
being united to her. It was some days before
this mystery was cleared up, as it was not until the
seals were broken, that they found the following written
paper in his desk, dated eight days before the fatal
catastrophe:—“I adore Mademoiselle
de N——, and shall do so all my life.
Her virtues surpassed if possible her charms; and
I would sacrifice the last drop of my blood rather
than cause her the least uneasiness. But the cruel
and dangerous passion of jealousy possesses me to
such a degree, that notwithstanding all her merits,
the bare idea of a rival makes me wretched. Every
effort on my part, joined to the voice of reason,
has never been able to eradicate this dreadful poison
from my heart, and which I fear is incurable.
If I yield to my penchant for her, and become her husband,
instead of being a tender lover, of which she is so
worthy, I should be a tyrant, whose frenzy would render
her more miserable than myself. They press me
to bring our union to a conclusion, they threaten me
also with a rival, who without doubt deserves her
more than I. How can I, miserable wretch that I am,
how can I ward off the blow which threatens me?
I flatter myself, at least, to have succeeded in my
endeavours to conceal the vice of a heart which, although
entirely her own, can never exterminate the miserable
passion which possesses it. The time approaches
with rapid strides when I must make up my mind.
Good Heaven direct me! shall I risk making her unhappy?
Can I resolve to see her the wife of another?
Never, no never! rather let me die a hundred deaths....”
This unfortunate youth had written no more, but it was sufficient to prove that he had sacrificed himself for the happiness of his mistress.
Album of Love.
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