“It is needless to attempt an apology for my remissness to you in money matters; my conduct is beyond all excuse.—Literally, Sir, I had it not. The Distressful state of commerce at this town has this year taken from my otherwise scanty income no less than L20.—That part of my salary depends upon the Imposts, and they are no more for one year. I inclose you three guineas; and shall soon settle all with you. I shall not mention your goodness to me; it is beyond my power to describe either the feelings of my wounded soul at not being able to pay you as I ought; or the grateful respect with which I have the honor to be
“Sir, Your deeply obliged humble servant,
“ROBT. BURNS.
“Dumfries, Jany. 29, 1795.”
And so I walk out of my friend’s leafy paradise this July afternoon, thinking of the bard who in all his songs and sorrows made
“rustic
life and poverty
Grow beautiful beneath his touch,”
and whose mission it was
“To weigh the inborn worth of man.”
THE NAME IN THE BARK.
The self of so long ago,
And the self I struggle to know,
I sometimes think we are two,—or
are we shadows of one?
To-day the shadow I am
Comes back in the sweet summer calm
To trace where the earlier shadow flitted
awhile in the sun.
Once more in the dewy morn
I trod through the whispering corn,
Cool to my fevered cheek soft breezy kisses
were blown;
The ribboned and tasselled grass
Leaned over the flattering glass,
And the sunny waters trilled the same
low musical tone.
To the gray old birch I came,
Where I whittled my school-boy name:
The nimble squirrel once more ran skippingly
over the rail,
The blackbirds down among
The alders noisily sung,
And under the blackberry-brier whistled
the serious quail.
I came, remembering well
How my little shadow fell,
As I painfully reached and wrote to leave
to the future a sign:
There, stooping a little, I found
A half-healed, curious wound,
An ancient scar in the bark, but no initial
of mine!
Then the wise old boughs overhead
Took counsel together, and said,—
And the buzz of their leafy lips like
a murmur of prophecy passed,—
“He is busily carving a name
In the tough old wrinkles of fame;
But, cut he as deep as he may, the lines
will close over at last!”
Sadly I pondered awhile,
Then I lifted my soul with a smile,
And I said,—“Not cheerful
men, but anxious children are we,
Still hurting ourselves with the knife,
As we toil at the letters of life,
Just marring a little the rind, never
piercing the heart of the tree.”
And now by the rivulet’s brink
I leisurely saunter, and think
How idle this strife will appear when
circling ages have run,
If then the real I am
Descend from the heavenly calm,
To trace where the shadow I seem once
flitted awhile in the sun.