The Arabian Nights Entertainments were sternly refused
her; so she read them by stealth; and from that day
there was always a collection of books, borrowed from
friends, or filched from the upper shelf in the library,
beneath her mattress. Nobody thought of looking
there for them; and even if they had, they might have
paused to reflect on the consequences of betraying
her. Her eldest sister having given her a small
workbox on her eleventh birthday, had the present
thrown at her head two days later for reporting to
her parents that Nelly’s fondness for sitting
in a certain secluded summer-house was due to her
desire to read Lord Byron’s poetry unobserved.
Miss Lydia’s forehead was severely cut; and Elinor,
though bitterly remorseful, not only refused to beg
pardon for her fault, but shattered every brittle
article in the room to which she was confined for
her contumacy. The vicar, on being consulted,
recommended that she should be well whipped.
This counsel was repugnant to Hardy McQuinch, but
he gave his wife leave to use her discretion in the
matter. The mother thought that the child ought
to be beaten into submission; but she was afraid to
undertake the task, and only uttered a threat, which
was received with stubborn defiance. This was
forgotten next day when Elinor, exhausted by a week
of remorse, terror, rage, and suspense, became dangerously
ill. When she recovered, her parents were more
indulgent to her, and were gratified by finding her
former passionate resistance replaced by sulky obedience.
Five years elapsed, and Elinor began to write fiction.
The beginning of a novel, and many incoherent verses
imitated from Lara, were discovered by her mother,
and burnt by her father. This outrage she never
forgave. She was unable to make her resentment
felt, for she no longer cared to break glass and china.
She feared even to remonstrate lest she should humiliate
herself by bursting into tears, as, since her illness,
she had been prone to do in the least agitation.
So she kept silence, and ceased to speak to either
of her parents except when they addressed questions
to her. Her father would neither complain of
this nor confess the regret he felt for his hasty
destruction of her manuscripts; but, whilst he proclaimed
that he would burn every scrap of her nonsense that
might come into his hands, he took care to be blind
when he surprised her with suspicious bundles of foolscap,
and snubbed his wife for hinting that Elinor was secretly
disobeying him. Meanwhile her silent resentment
never softened, and the life of the family was embittered
by their consciousness of it. It never occurred
to Mrs. McQuinch, an excellent mother to her two eldest
daughters, that she was no more fit to have charge
of the youngest than a turtle is to rear a young eagle.
The discomfort of their relations never shook her
faith in their “naturalness.” Like
her husband and the vicar, she believed that when
God sent children he made their parents fit to rule
them. And Elinor resented her parents’ tyranny,
as she felt it to be, without dreaming of making any
allowances for their being in a false position towards
her.