stations and on bus-tops with incongruous rifles on
Saturday afternoons. Actually, it is not correct
to include these living figures in his vague idea
of war. They had to him no connection with anything
outside normal peaceful life, stirred his thoughts
to war no more than seeing a gasbracket would wake
him to imaginings of a coalmine or a pit explosion.
His slight conceptions of war, then, were a mere matter
of print and books and pictures, and the first months
of this present war were exactly the same, no more
and no less—newspaper paragraphs and photos
and drawings in the weeklies hanging on the bookstalls.
He read about the Retreat and the Advance, skimmed
the prophets’ forecasts, gulped the communiques
with interest a good deal fainter than he read the
accounts of the football matches or a boxing bout.
He expected “our side” to win of course,
and was quite patriotic; was in fact a “supporter”
of the British Army in exactly the sense of being a
“supporter” or “follower” of
Tottenham Hotspurs or Kent County. Any thoughts
that he might shoulder a rifle and fight Germans would
at that time, if it had entered his head, have seemed
just as ridiculous as a thought that he should play
in the Final at the Crystal Palace or step into the
ring to fight Carpentier. It took a long time
to move him from this attitude of aloofness.
Recruiting posters failed utterly to touch him.
He looked at them, criticized them, even discussed
their “goodness” or drawing power on recruits
with complete detachment and without the vaguest idea
that they were addressed to him. He bought Allies’
flag-buttons, and subscribed with his fellow-employees
to a Red Cross Fund, and joined them again in sending
some sixpences to a newspaper Smokes Gift Fund; he
always most scrupulously stood up and uncovered to
“God Save the King,” and clapped and encored
vociferously any patriotic songs or sentiments from
the stage. He thought he was doing his full duty
as a loyal Briton, and even—this was when
he promised a regular sixpence a week to the Smokes
Fund—going perhaps a little beyond it.
First hints and suggestions that he should enlist he
treated as an excellent jest, and when at last they
became too frequent and pointed for that, and began
to come from complete strangers, he became justly
indignant at such “impudence” and “interference,”
and began long explainings to people he knew, that
he wasn’t the one to be bullied into anything,
that fighting wasn’t “his line,”
that he “had no liking for soldiering,”
that he would have gone like a shot, but had his own
good and adequate reasons for not doing so.
There is no need to tell of the stages by which he arrived at the conclusion that he must enlist: from the first dawning wonder at such a possibility, through qualms of doubt and fear and spasms of hope and—almost—courage, to a dull apathy of resignation. No need to tell either the particular circumstances that “conscripted” him at last, because although his name is not real