“Loving in truth, and fain in verse my love
to show,
That she, dear she, might take some pleasure
of my pain,—
Pleasure might cause her read, reading might
make her know,—
Knowledge might pity win, and pity grace obtain,—
I sought fit words to paint the blackest face
of woe,
Studying inventions fine her wits to entertain;
Oft turning others’ leaves to see if thence
would flow
Some fresh and fruitful flower upon my sunburned
brain.
But words came halting forth ...
Biting my truant pen, beating myself for spite,
‘Fool,’ said my muse to me, ‘look
in thy heart and write.’”
And though he turned others’ leaves it was quite literally looking in his heart that he wrote. He analyses the sequence of his feelings with a vividness and minuteness which assure us of their truth. All that he tells is the fruit of experience, dearly bought:
“Desire! desire! I have too dearly bought
With price of mangled mind thy worthless ware.
Too long, too long! asleep thou hast me brought,
Who shouldst my mind to higher things prepare.”
and earlier in the sequence—
“I now have learned love right and learned even
so
As those that being poisoned poison know.”
In the last two sonnets, with crowning truth and pathos he renounces earthly love which reaches but to dust, and which because it fades brings but fading pleasure:
“Then farewell, world! Thy uttermost I
see.
Eternal love, maintain thy life in me.”
The sonnets were published after Sidney’s death, and it is certain that like Shakespeare’s they were never intended for publication at all. The point is important because it helps to vindicate Sidney’s sincerity, but were any vindication needed another more certain might be found. The Arcadia is strewn with love songs and sonnets, the exercises solely of the literary imagination. Let any one who wishes to gauge the sincerity of the impulse of the Stella sequence compare any of the poems in it with those in the romance.