whenever the established church of England shall lose
one of its brightest living ornaments, and one of
the most useful members which that, or perhaps any
other Christian communion, can boast. In the
mean time, may his exemplary life be long continued,
and his zealous ministry abundantly prospered!
I beg my reader’s pardon for this digression.
The passage I referred to above is remarkably, though
not equally, applicable to both the cases, under that
head where I am showing that God sometimes accomplishes
the great work of which we speak, by secret and immediate
impressions on the mind. After preceding illustrations,
there are the following words, on which the colonel’s
conversion will throw the justest light. “Yea,
I have known those of distinguished genius, polite
manners, and great experience in human affairs, who,
after having out-grown all the impressions of a religious
education—after having been hardened, rather
than subdued by the most singular mercies, even various,
repeated, and astonishing deliverances, which have
appeared to themselves as no less than miraculous—after
having lived for years without God in the world, notoriously
corrupt themselves, and labouring to the utmost to
corrupt others, have been stopped on a sudden in the
full career of their sin, and have felt such rays
of the divine presence, and of redeeming love, darting
in upon their minds, almost like lightning from heaven,
as have at once roused, overpowered, and transformed
them; so that they have come out of their secret chambers
with an irreconcilable enmity to those vices to which,
when they entered them, they were the tamest and most
abandoned slaves; and have appeared from that very
hour the votaries, the patrons, the champions of religion;
and after a course of the most resolute attachment
to it, in spite of all the reasonings or the railleries,
the importunities or the reproaches of its enemies,
they have continued to this day some of its brightest
ornaments; a change which I behold with equal wonder
and delight, and which, if a nation should join in
deriding it, I would adore as the finger of God.”
The mind of Major Gardiner continued from this remarkable
time, till towards the end of October, (that is rather
more than three months, but especially the first two
of them,) in as extraordinary a situation as one can
well imagine. He knew nothing of the joys arising
from a sense of pardon; but, on the contrary, for
the greater part of that time, and with very short
intervals of hope towards the end of it, took it for
granted that he must in all probability quickly perish.
Nevertheless, he had such a sense of the evil of sin,
of the goodness of the Divine Being, and of the admirable
tendency of the Christian revelation, that he resolved
to spend the remainder of his life, while God continued
him out of hell, in as rational and as useful a manner
as he could; and to continue casting himself at the
foot of divine mercy every day, and often in a day,