For on their march to westward, Bedivere,
Who slowly paced among the slumbering
host,
Heard in his tent the moanings of the
King:
“I found Him in the shining of the
stars,
I mark’d Him in the flowering of
His fields,
But in His ways with men I find Him not.
I waged His wars, and now I pass and die.
O me! for why is all around us here
As if some lesser god had made the world,
But had not force to shape it as he would,
Till the High God behold it from beyond,
And enter it, and make it beautiful?
Or else as if the world were wholly fair,
But that these eyes of men are dense and
dim,
And have not power to see it as it is:
Perchance, because we see not to the close;—
For I, being simple, thought to work His
will,
And have but stricken with the sword in
vain;
And all whereon I lean’d in wife
and friend
Is traitor to my peace, and all my realm
Reels back into the beast, and is no more.
My God, thou hast forgotten me in my death:
Nay—God my Christ—I
pass but shall not die.”
Then, ere that last weird battle in the
west,
There came on Arthur sleeping, Gawain
kill’d
In Lancelot’s war, the ghost of
Gawain blown
Along a wandering wind, and past his ear
Went shrilling, “Hollow, hollow
all delight!
Hail, King! to-morrow thou shalt pass
away.
Farewell! there is an isle of rest for
thee.
And I am blown along a wandering wind,
And hollow, hollow, hollow all delight.”
And fainter onward, like wild birds that
change
Their season in the night and wail their
way
From cloud to cloud, down the long wind
the dream
Shrill’d; but in going mingled with
dim cries
Far in the moonlit haze among the hills,
As of some lonely city sack’d by
night,
When all is lost, and wife and child with
wail
Pass to new lords; and Arthur woke and
call’d,
“Who spake? A dream. O
light upon the wind,
Thine, Gawain, was the voice—are
these dim cries
Thine? or doth all that haunts the waste
and wild
Mourn, knowing it will go along with me?”
This heard the bold Sir Bedivere and spake:
“O me, my King, let pass whatever
will,
Elves, and the harmless glamour of the
field;
But in their stead thy name and glory
cling
To all high places like a golden cloud
For ever: but as yet thou shalt not
pass.
Light was Gawain in life, and light in
death
Is Gawain, for the ghost is as the man;
And care not thou for dreams from him,
but rise—
I hear the steps of Modred in the west,
And with him many of thy people, and knights
Once thine, whom thou has loved, but grosser
grown
Than heathen, spitting at their vows and
thee.
Right well in heart they know thee for
the King.
Arise, go forth and conquer as of old.”