She turned to face the difficult days and nights before her and forced herself to speak cheerfully to her father, who sat in a chair on the porch, watching the departing travelers and not seeing them.  “How splendid Judith is!” she cried, and went on with a break in the voice she tried to control:  “She will take Mother’s place for us all!”

Her father frowned slightly, as though she had interrupted him in some effort where concentration was necessary, but otherwise gave no sign that he heard her.

Sylvia watched him anxiously through the window.  Presently she saw him relax from his position of strained attention with a great sigh, almost a groan, and lean back in his chair, covering his eyes with his hands.  When he took them down, his face had the aged, ravaged expression of exhaustion which had so startled her on her arrival.  Now she felt none of her frightened revulsion, but only an aching pity which sent her out to him in a rush, her arms outstretched, crying to him brokenly that he still had his children who loved him more than anything in the world.

For the first time in her life, her father repelled her, shrinking away from her with a brusque, involuntary recoil that shocked her, thrusting her arms roughly to one side, and rising up hastily to retreat into the house.  He said in a bitter, recriminating tone, “You don’t know what you are talking about,” and left her standing there, the tears frozen in her eyes.  He went heavily upstairs to his study on the top floor and locked the door.  Sylvia heard the key turn.  It shut her into an intolerable solitude.  She had not thought before that anything could seem worse than the desolation of her mother’s absence.

She felt a deathlike sinking of her heart.  She was afraid of her father, who no longer seemed her father, created to protect and cherish her, but some maniac stranger.  She felt an impulse like that of a terrified child to run away, far away to some one who should stand before her and bear the brunt.  She started up from her chair with panic haste, but the familiar room, saturated with recollections of her mother’s gallant spirit, stood about her like a wall, shutting her in to the battle with her heart.  Who was there to summon whom she could endure as a spectator of her father’s condition?  Her mother’s empty chair stood opposite her, against the wall.  She looked at it fixedly; and drawing a long breath sat down quietly.

This act of courage brought a reward in the shape of a relaxation of the clutch on her throat and about her heart.  Her mother’s wise materialism came to her mind now and she made a heartsick resolve that she would lead as physically normal a life as possible, working out of doors, forcing herself to eat, and that, above all things, she would henceforth deny herself the weakening luxury of tears.  And yet but an hour later, as she bent over her mother’s flower-beds blazing in the sun, she found the tears again streaming from her eyes.