Aweel, we could not be telling that!  We could only hope and pray!  And we had learned again to pray, long since.  I have wondered, often, and Mrs. Lauder has wondered with me, what the fathers and mothers of Britain would do in these black days without prayer to guide them and sustain them.  So we could but stand there, keeping back our tears and our fears, and hoping for the best.  One thing was sure; we might not let the laddie see how close we were to greeting.  It was for us to be so brave as God would let us be.  It was hard for him.  He was no boy, you ken, going blindly and gayly to a great adventure; he had need of the finest courage and devotion a man could muster that day.

For he knew fully now what it was that he was going back to.  He knew the hell the Huns had made of war, which had been bad enough, in all conscience, before they did their part to make it worse.  And he was high strung.  He could live over, and I make no doubt he did, in those days after he had his orders to go back, every grim and dreadful thing that was waiting for him out there.  He had been through it all, and he was going back.  He had come out of the valley of the shadow, and now he was to ride down into it again.

And it was with a smile he left us!  I shall never forget that.  His thought was all for us whom he was leaving behind.  His care was for us, lest we should worry too greatly and think too much of him.

“I’ll be all right,” he told us.  “You’re not to fret about me, any of you.  A man does take his chances out there—­but they’re the chances every man must take these days, if he’s a man at all.  I’d rather be taking them than be safe at home.”

We did our best to match the laddie’s spirit and be worthy of him.  But it was cruelly hard.  We had lost him and found him again, and now he was being taken from us for the second time.  It was harder, much harder, to see him go this second time than it had been at first, and it had been hard enough then, and bad enough.  But there was nothing else for it.  So much we knew.  It was a thing ordered and inevitable.

And it was not many days before we had slipped back into the way things had been before John was invalided home.  It is a strange thing about life, the way that one can become used to things.  So it was with us.  Strange things, terrible things, outrageous things, that, in time of peace, we would never have dared so much as to think possible, came to be the matters of every day for us.  It was so with John.  We came to think of it as natural that he should be away from us, and in peril of his life every minute of every hour.  It was not easier for us.  Indeed, it was harder than it had been before, just as it had been harder for us to say good-by the second time.  But we thought less often of the strangeness of it.  We were really growing used to the war, and it was less the monstrous, strange thing than it had been in our daily lives.  War had become our