“I held the bead,” he kept repeating, his glance going blankly past her as he struggled to find words for the strange experience, “but then I saw his ribs going in and out. He was big where the cinches would run, you see, and I began to understand where he got that wind of his that never gives out. Besides, I somehow got to thinking about his heart under the ribs, lady, and I figured it kind of low to stop all the life in him with a bullet. So I swung my bead up along his neck—he’s got a long neck and that means a long stride—till I came plump on his head, and just then he swung his head and gave me a look.”
He breathed deeply, and then: “It was like jumping into cold water all of a sudden. I felt hollow inside. And then all at once I knew they’d never been a hoss like him in the mountains. I knew he was an outlaw. I knew he was plumb bad. But I knew he was a king, lady, and I couldn’t no more shoot him that I could lie behind a bush and shoot a man.” He was suddenly on fire.
“Looked to me like he was my hoss. Like he’d been planned for me. I wanted him terrible bad, the way you want things when you’re a kid—the way you want Christmas the day before, when it don’t seem like you could wait for tomorrow.”
“But—he’s a man-killer, Mr. Perris. I’ve seen it!”
His hand went out to her and she listened in utter amazement while he pleaded with all his heart in his voice.
“Lemme have a chance to make him my hoss, murders or not! Lemme stay here on the ranch and work, because they’s no other good place for hunting him. I know you want them mares, but some day I’ll get my rope on him and then I swear I’ll break him or he’ll break me. I’ll break him, ride him to death, or he’ll pitch me off and finish me liked he finished Cordova. But I know I can handle him. I sure feel it inside of me, lady! Pay? I don’t want pay! I’ll work for nothing. If I had a stake, I’d give it to you for a chance to keep on trying for him. I know I’m asking a pile. You want the mares and you can get them the minute Alcatraz is dropped with a bullet,—but I tell you straight, he’s worth all of ’em—all six and more!”
A light came over his face. “Miss Jordan, lemme stay on and try my luck and if I get him and break him, I’ll turn him over to you. And I tell you: he’s the wind on four feet.”
“You’ll do all this and then give him to me when he’s gentled and broken—if that can be done? Then why do you want him?”
“I want to show him that he’s got a master. He’s played with me and plumb fooled me all these weeks. I want to get on him and show him he’s beat.” His fierce joy in the thought was contagious. “I want to make him turn when I pull on the reins. I’ll have him start when I want to start and stop when I want to stop. I’ll make him glad when I talk soft to him and shake when I talk hard. He’s made a fool of me; I’ll make a fool and a show of him. Lady, will you say yes?”