thought of its simple words of manly and hearty sorrow.
I knew that the eminence he had reached had not come
till she who would have been proudest of it was beyond
knowing it or caring for it. And I cannot say
with what interest and satisfaction I thought I could
trace, in the features which were sad without the
infusion of a grain of sentimentalism, in the subdued
and quiet tone of the man’s whole aspect and
manner and address, the manifest proof that he had
not shut down the leaf upon that old page of his history,
that he had never quite got over that great grief
of earlier years. One felt better and more hopeful
for the sight. I suppose many people, after meeting
some overwhelming loss or trial, have fancied that
they would soon die; but that is almost invariably
a delusion. Various dogs have died of a broken
heart, but very few human beings. The Inferior
creature has pined away at his master’s loss:
as for us, it is not that one would doubt the
depth and sincerity of sorrow, but that there is more
endurance in our constitution, and that God has appointed
that grief shall rather mould and influence than kill.
It is a much sadder sight than an early death, to
see human beings live on after heavy trial, and sink
into something very unlike their early selves and
very inferior to their early selves. I can well
believe that many a human being, if he could have a
glimpse in innocent youth of what he will be twenty
or thirty years after, would pray in anguish to be
taken before coming to that! Mansie Wauch’s
glimpse of destitution was bad enough; but a million
times worse is a glimpse of hardened and unabashed
sin and shame. And it would be no comfort—it
would be an aggravation in that view—to
think that by the time you have reached that miserable
point, you will have grown pretty well reconciled
to it. That is the worst of all. To be
wicked and depraved, and to feel it, and to be wretched
under it, is bad enough; but it is a great deal worse
to have fallen into that depth of moral degradation
and to feel that really you don’t care.
The instinct of accommodation is not always a blessing.
It is happy for us, that, though in youth we hoped
to live in a castle or a palace, we can make up our
mind to live in a little parsonage or a quiet street
in a country town. It is happy for us, that,
though in youth we hoped to be very great and famous,
we are so entirely reconciled to being little and unknown.
But it is not happy for the poor girl who walks the
Haymarket at night that she feels her degradation
so little. It is not happy that she has come
to feel towards her miserable life so differently now
from what she would have felt towards it, had it been
set before her while she was the blooming, thoughtless
creature in the little cottage in the country.
It is only by fits and starts that the poor drunken
wretch, living in a garret upon a little pittance
allowed him by his relations, who was once a man of
character and hope, feels what a sad pitch he has come
to. If you could get him to feel it constantly,
there would be some hope of his reclamation even yet.