Potterism eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 258 pages of information about Potterism.

Potterism eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 258 pages of information about Potterism.

Why indeed?  I began to enumerate some possible reasons—­an inaccurate habit of mind, a sensational imagination (both these misfortunes being hereditary), an egotistic craving for attention, even unfavourable attention—­it might be any of these things, or all.  But I hadn’t got far before she broke in, ’Oh, God.  I’ve not had a moment’s peace since ...  I loved him, and I killed him....  I let them think it was an accident....  It was as if I was gagged, I couldn’t speak.  And after a bit, when it had all settled down, there didn’t seem to be any reason why I should say anything....  I never thought, truly I never thought, that they’d ever suspect some one else....  And then, a little while ago, I heard mother saying something, to some one about Mr. Gideon, and last night Katherine Varick came and told Jane people were saying it everywhere.  And this morning there was that piece in the Haste. ...  Oh! what shall I do?

‘You don’t really,’ I said, ‘feel any doubt about that.  Do you?’

She lifted her wet, puckered face and stared at me, and I saw that, for the moment at least, she was not thinking of herself at all, but only of her tragedy and her problem.

‘You mean,’ she whispered, ‘that I must tell ...’

‘It’s rather obvious, isn’t it,’ I said gently, because I was horribly sorry for her.  ‘You must tell the truth, whatever it is.’

‘And be tried for murder—­or manslaughter?  Appear in the docks?’ she quavered, her frightened brown eyes large and round.

’I don’t think it would come to that.  All you have to do is to tell your parents.  Your father is responsible for the stuff in the papers, and your mother, I gather, for the spreading of the story personally.  Your confession to them would stop that.  They would withdraw, retract what they have said, and say publicly that they were mistaken, that the evidence they thought they had, had been proved false.  Then it would be generally assumed again that the thing was an accident, and the talk would die down.  No one need ever know but your parents and myself.  I am bound, and they would choose, not to repeat it to any one.’

‘Not to Jane?’ she questioned.

‘Well, what does Jane think at present?  Does she suspect?’

She shook her head.  ’I don’t know.  Jane’s been rather queer all day....  I’ve sometimes thought she suspected something.  Only if she did, I believe she’d have told me.  Jane doesn’t consider people’s feelings, you know; she’d say anything, however awful....  Only she’s deep, too.  Not like me.  I must have things out; she’ll keep them dark, sometimes....  No, I don’t know what Jane thinks, really I don’t.’

I didn’t know either.  Another thing I didn’t know was what Gideon thought.  They might both suspect Clare, and this might have tied Gideon’s hands; he might have shrunk from defending himself at the expense of a frightened, unhappy girl and Jane’s sister.

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