She leant forward across the vestry table, locking and unlocking her hands.
‘This is quite private, isn’t it,’ she said. ‘As private as if...?’
‘Quite,’ I told her.
She drew a long, shivering breath, and leant her forehead on her clasped hands.
‘You know,’ she said, so low that I had to bend forward to catch it, ’what people are saying—what my people suspect about—about Oliver Hobart’s death.’
‘Yes, I know.’
‘Well—it wasn’t Mr. Gideon.’
‘You know that?’ I said quickly. And a great relief flooded me. I hadn’t known, until that moment, because I had driven it under, how large a part of my brain believed that Gideon had perhaps done this thing.
‘Yes,’ she whispered. ‘I know it ... Because I know—I know—who did it.’
In that moment I felt that I knew too, and that Gideon knew, and that I ought to have guessed all along.
I said nothing, but waited for the girl’s next word, if she had a next word to say. It wasn’t for me to question her.
And then, quite suddenly, she gave a little moan of misery and broke into passionate tears.
I waited for a moment, then I got up and poured her out a glass of water. It must have been pretty bad for her. It must have been pretty bad all this time, I thought, knowing this thing about her sister.
She drank the water, and became quieter.
‘Do you want to tell me any more?’ I asked her, presently.
’Oh, I do, I do. But it’s so difficult ... I don’t know how to tell you.... Oh, God ... It was I that killed him!’
‘Yes?’ I said, after a moment, gently, and without apparent surprise. One learns in parish work not to start, however much one may be startled. I merely added a legitimate inquiry. ‘Why was that?’
She gulped. ‘I want to tell you everything. I want to.’
I was sure she did. She had reached the familiar pouring-out stage. It was obviously going to be a relief to her to spread herself on the subject. I am pretty well used to being told everything, and at times a good deal more, and have learnt to discount much of it. I looked away from her and prepared to listen, and to give my mind to sifting, if I could, the fact from the fancy in her story. This is a special art, and one which all parsons do well to learn. I have heard my vicar on the subject of women’s confessions.
’Women—women. Some of them will invent any crime—give themselves away with both hands—merely to make themselves interesting. Poor things, they don’t realise how tedious sin is. One has to be on one’s guard the whole time, with that kind.’
I deduced that Clare Potter might possibly be that kind. So I listened carefully, at first neither believing nor disbelieving.
‘It’s difficult to tell you,’ she began, in a pathetic, unsteady voice. ‘It hurts, rather ...’