should feel it deeply, and thus learn humility and
caution, we do not like to be reminded of it by anybody
else. Some people have a wonderful memory for
the Vealy sayings and doings of their friends.
They may be very bad hands at remembering anything
else; but they never forget the silly speeches and
actions on which one would like to shut down the leaf.
You may find people a great part of whose conversation
consists of repeating and exaggerating their neighbors’
Veal; and though that Veal may be immature enough
and silly enough, it will go hard but your friend
Mr. Snarling will represent it as a good deal worse
than the fact. You will find men, who while at
college were students of large ambition, but slender
abilities, revenging themselves in this fashion upon
the clever men who beat them. It is easy, very
easy, to remember foolish things that were said and
done even by the senior wrangler or the man who took
a double first-class; and candid folk will think that
such foolish things were not fair samples of the men,—and
will remember, too, that the men have grown out of
these, have grown mature and wise, and for many a
year past would not have said or done such things.
But if you were to judge from the conversation of Mr.
Limejuice, (who wrote many prize essays, but, through
the malice and stupidity of the judges, never got
any prizes,) you would conclude that every word uttered
by his successful rivals was one that stamped them
as essential fools, and calves which would never grow
into oxen. I do not think it is a pleasing or
magnanimous feature in any man’s character, that
he is ever eager to rake up these early follies.
I would not be ready to throw in the teeth of a pretty
butterfly that it was an ugly caterpillar once, unless
I understood that the butterfly liked to remember the
fact. I would not suggest to this fair sheet
of paper on which I am writing, that not long ago
it was dusty rags and afterwards dirty pulp. You
cannot be an ox without previously having been a calf;
you acquire taste and sense gradually, and in acquiring
them you pass through stages in which you have very
little of either. It is a poor burden for the
memory, to collect and shovel into it the silly sayings
and doings in youth of people who have become great
and eminent. I read with much disgust a biography
of Mr. Disraeli which recorded, no doubt accurately,
all the sore points in that statesman’s history.
I remember with great approval what Lord John Manners
said in Parliament in reply to Mr. Bright, who had
quoted a well-known and very silly passage from Lord
John’s early poetry. “I would rather,”
said Lord John, “have been the man who in his
youth wrote those silly verses than the man who in
mature years would rake them up.” And with
even greater indignation I regard the individual who,
when a man is doing creditably and Christianly the
work of life, is ever ready to relate and aggravate
the moral delinquencies of his school-boy and student
days, long since repented of and corrected. “Remember