“What do you say?”
“What do you?” I answered; for, like other bad people, I had the greatest respect for good people’s opinions.
“I think—a small—silver salver!”
“Do you think so, really?”
“Yes, Del. That will be good; silver, you know, is always good to have; and it will be handsome and useful always.”
“What! for us?”
“Yes,—pretty to hand a cup of tea on, or a glass of wine,—pretty to set in the middle of a long table with a vase of flowers on it, when you have the Court and High-Sheriff to dine,—as you will, of course, every year,—or with your spoon-goblet. Oh, there are plenty of ways to make a small silver salver useful. Mrs. Harris says she doesn’t see how any one can keep house without a silver salver.”
The last sentence she said with a laugh, for she knew I thought so much of what Mrs. Harris said.
“We’ve kept house all our lives without one, Laura.”
“Yes,—but I often wish we had one, for all that. As Mrs. Harris says, ‘It gives such an air!’”
What a dreadful utilitarian Laura was, I thought. Now, the whole world and Boston were full of beautiful things,—full of things that had no special usefulness, but were absolutely and of themselves beautiful. And such a thing I wanted,—such a presence before me,—“a thing of beauty and of joy forever,”—something that would not speak directly or indirectly of labor, of something to be wrought out with toil, or associated with common, every-day objects. When that life should come to which I secretly looked forward,—when my soul should bound into a more radiant atmosphere, where the clouds, if any were, should be all gold- and silver-tinted, and where my sorrows, love-colored, were to be sweeter than other people’s joys,—in that life, there would be moments of sweet abandonment to the simple sense of happiness. Then I should want something on which my mind might linger, my eye rest,—as the bird rests for an instant, to turn her plumage in the sun, and take another and loftier flight. Not a word of all this, which common minds called farrago, but which had its truth to me, did I utter to Laura. Of course, none of these things bear transplanting or expressing.
“Laura, do you like that statue of Mercury in Mrs. Gore’s library?”
“Very much. But I am sure I should be tired of seeing it every day, standing on one toe. I should be tired, if he wasn’t.”
“Mrs. Gore says she never tires of it. I asked her. She says it is a delight to her to lie on the sofa and trace the beautiful undulations of his figure. How airy! It looks as if it would fly again without the least effort,—as if it had just ‘new-lighted on a heaven-kissing hill’! Don’t you think it perfect, Laura?”
“Well—yes,—I suppose so. I am not so enthusiastic as you are about it.”
“Why don’t you like it?”
I would not let Laura see how disappointed I was.