Leaving my books I went out into the open.  The sky was overcast, yet the day by no means gloomy, for a soft, diffused light oozed through the clouds and turned all things warm and almost summery.  But I saw the grounds now in their nakedness because I understood.  Hate means strife, and the two together weave the robe that terror wears.  Having no so-called religious beliefs myself, nor belonging to any set of dogmas called a creed, I could stand outside these feelings and observe.  Yet they soaked into me sufficiently for me to grasp sympathetically what others, with more cabined souls (I flattered myself), might feel.  That picture in the dining room stalked everywhere, hid behind every tree, peered down upon me from the peaked ugliness of the bourgeois towers, and left the impress of its powerful hand upon every bed of flowers.  “You must not do this, you must not do that,” went past me through the air.  “You must not leave these narrow paths,” said the rigid iron railings of black.  “You shall not walk here,” was written on the lawns.  “Keep to the steps,” “Don’t pick the flowers; make no noise of laughter, singing, dancing,” was placarded all over the rose-garden, and “Trespassers will be—­not prosecuted but—­destroyed” hung from the crest of monkey tree and holly.  Guarding the ends of each artificial terrace stood gaunt, implacable policemen, warders, jailers.  “Come with us,” they chanted, “or be damned eternally.”

I remember feeling quite pleased with myself that I had discovered this obvious explanation of the prison feeling the place breathed out.  That the posthumous influence of heavy old Samuel Franklyn might be an inadequate solution did not occur to me.  By “getting the place straight again,” his widow, of course, meant forgetting the glamour of fear and foreboding his depressing creed had temporarily forced upon her; and Frances, delicately minded being, did not speak of it because it was the influence of the man her friend had loved.  I felt lighter; a load was lifted from me.  “To trace the unfamiliar to the familiar,” came back a sentence I had read somewhere, “is to understand.”  It was a real relief.  I could talk with Frances now, even with my hostess, no danger of treading clumsily.  For the key was in my hands.  I might even help to dissipate the Shadow, “to get it straight again.”  It seemed, perhaps, our long invitation was explained!

I went into the house laughing—­at myself a little.  “Perhaps after all the artist’s outlook, with no hard and fast dogmas, is as narrow as the others!  How small humanity is!  And why is there no possible and true combination of all outlooks?”

The feeling of “unsettling” was very strong in me just then, in spite of my big discovery which was to clear everything up.  And at the moment I ran into Frances on the stairs, with a portfolio of sketches under her arm.

It came across me then abruptly that, although she had worked a great deal since we came, she had shown me nothing.  It struck me suddenly as odd, unnatural.  The way she tried to pass me now confirmed my newborn suspicion that—­well, that her results were hardly what they ought to be.