“You deserve to go there,” said he, “and to be under such treatment, that you would forget the meaning of the word peace.  It would do you good.  It would take some of your high notions out of you.  But I am not ready to send you there yet, notwithstanding your ingratitude for all my kindness and forbearance.  You have been the plague of my life.  I have wanted to make you happy, and I have been repaid with the basest ingratitude; but though you have proved yourself incapable of appreciating my kindness, I will be lenient towards you, Linda.  I will give you one more chance to redeem your character.  If you behave yourself and do as I require, I will forgive you and treat you as I always have done; but if you disobey me, I will punish you as I would the meanest slave on my plantation.  Never let me hear that fellow’s name mentioned again.  If I ever know of your speaking to him, I will cowhide you both; and if I catch him lurking about my premises, I will shoot him as soon as I would a dog.  Do you hear what I say?  I’ll teach you a lesson about marriage and free niggers!  Now go, and let this be the last time I have occasion to speak to you on this subject.”

Reader, did you ever hate?  I hope not.  I never did but once; and I trust I never shall again.  Somebody has called it “the atmosphere of hell;” and I believe it is so.

For a fortnight the doctor did not speak to me.  He thought to mortify me; to make me feel that I had disgraced myself by receiving the honorable addresses of a respectable colored man, in preference to the base proposals of a white man.  But though his lips disdained to address me, his eyes were very loquacious.  No animal ever watched its prey more narrowly than he watched me.  He knew that I could write, though he had failed to make me read his letters; and he was now troubled lest I should exchange letters with another man.  After a while he became weary of silence; and I was sorry for it.  One morning, as he passed through the hall, to leave the house, he contrived to thrust a note into my hand.  I thought I had better read it, and spare myself the vexation of having him read it to me.  It expressed regret for the blow he had given me, and reminded me that I myself was wholly to blame for it.  He hoped I had become convinced of the injury I was doing myself by incurring his displeasure.  He wrote that he had made up his mind to go to Louisiana; that he should take several slaves with him, and intended I should be one of the number.  My mistress would remain where she was; therefore I should have nothing to fear from that quarter.  If I merited kindness from him, he assured me that it would be lavishly bestowed.  He begged me to think over the matter, and answer the following day.